a year has passed
Alright so basically one exam and one paper to finish and then headed home my freshman year in college over done with goodbye...what the heck?? ok so everything i have ever thought about college before this year was, for the most part pretty inaccurate. I am obligated to state that i feel like a huge loser livejournaling but quite frankly it just seems like the right thing to do right now. This year has been unexpected, unplanned, and at some points completely chaotic. I mean i've questioned more things about myself, my friends, my beliefs, and my values than I have ever done before. I learned to be slightly more outgoing and met amazing people that i will never forget. The thing is I went to college to learn that's what i was supposed to do and that's what i ahve planned on doing since i can remember, the funny thing though is I am pretty sure I learned alot more life lessons than anything I learned in the classroom. It's funny how people enter your life and have more or the same effect on you as the people you spent 4 years of highschool with in 7 or 8 months, not saying the people i went to highschool with didn't have an effect on me...it's just different. There are basically so many things on my mind right now swirming between the a brick of knowledge thrown at me the last few weeks and the nonsense facts from finals finished hours and days ago. I think of everything I learned this year it's that no matter what happens or how angry and upset or frustrated you maybe...never take the easy route...ever! I'm pretty sure if i woke up this time last november and said forget this shit in various ways i would be an incredibly different person. On another note if I hadn't went into college trying to be the person i've always wanted and not the person i was all through highschool the likeliness that i would be that girl i depise and don't understand would be quite likely. It's funny sometimes how things work out good and bad and how looking back only 7 months how differently i would have seen the day i went home from college. The thing is that your friends from college really do know you now, but your friends from highschool can explain it better than you can...So yea leaving friday and i am pretty sure it will be one of the most difficult things i've done in quite awhile...life's funny that way.