Psh.
Everything goes bad for a while. Then something happens, it doesn't even have to be spectacular, but it's something. Then it's sooooo good. It was needed so bad. But then, it's not. It's gone, the new car smell has worn off and been replaced with Burger King bags and receipts, cd wrappers and straws and gum, stuff. So then it's bad again. And the only thing that's needed, the only thing to fix it, is it, again.
Is that selfish? To be happy because it was good, then cry because it's bad again? Or is it ever really good? Is it always bad with little patches of blue peaking through the icky grayness of this Sunday morning of life?
I was suuuuuuuuuper happy yesterday. And then it's like my whole world just crashed down. I know that I feel this way. I know it conciously. But I don't know why. My life is by no means perfect but it's better today than it was two days ago. I have no reason to be upset, but today my life feels, wrong. I don't know. Something happened in my dreams, maybe. And I woke up askew. I'm not ever sure that I'm still alive from Saturday. I may be dead and that may be the only reason my life sucks less than it did. Because God felt sorry for me. Ha. That's funny. No one pity's the weak, only the strong. The strong deal with their shit, the weak just let it shit them.
Done for now, but not forever.
Cody
Will you hold me while I bleed, since you're the one who cut me?
Is that selfish? To be happy because it was good, then cry because it's bad again? Or is it ever really good? Is it always bad with little patches of blue peaking through the icky grayness of this Sunday morning of life?
I was suuuuuuuuuper happy yesterday. And then it's like my whole world just crashed down. I know that I feel this way. I know it conciously. But I don't know why. My life is by no means perfect but it's better today than it was two days ago. I have no reason to be upset, but today my life feels, wrong. I don't know. Something happened in my dreams, maybe. And I woke up askew. I'm not ever sure that I'm still alive from Saturday. I may be dead and that may be the only reason my life sucks less than it did. Because God felt sorry for me. Ha. That's funny. No one pity's the weak, only the strong. The strong deal with their shit, the weak just let it shit them.
Done for now, but not forever.
Cody
Will you hold me while I bleed, since you're the one who cut me?