labs, burgers, and selfishness
Life in a nutshell?
Got rehired at INO (why did they take me off teh payroll to begin with?). Maybe I'm older but I don't remember me being so exhausted/not enthused when I was working. Half the time, things run well, the other half the time it makes me kind of want to yell at the top of my lungs. My dad says I just feel underemployed considering my major and what I could be doing.
I had an interview with a really cool lab company in Northridge which I would love to work for. Sadly, I haven't heard back from them yet (I think it went well though). I did get offered a job at a lab in Camarillo which I accepted. However, they wanted me to start Monday morning which I can't do since I still work at INO (and they won't let me go). I told them and I feel like they wanted me to feel guilty about how much work they put into rehiring me for me to leave so soon (and how they wouldn't have done so if they would have known I would have left). It's just kind of dissapointing because I spend my whole life trying to help people and putting the needs of people over my own (which can be frustrating at times), so when someone tries to guilt trip me when an opportunity comes around for ME, I just wish instead of thinking about themselves and what they're gonna do, they should be happy for me and the opportunity I have, you know?
But that sums up my emotions. It's too bad because I didn't really want to go back to INO in the first place and now I think I'll end up working 2 jobs at once just to appease everybody. And to think I was getting excited because I was gonna be in a steady 8-5 job M-F rather than in a schedule that varies greatly and pretty much eliminates my weekends and my chances to have time to myself and my family. Sometimes I wish I thought more about what I want rather than what I think other people need of me.
Got rehired at INO (why did they take me off teh payroll to begin with?). Maybe I'm older but I don't remember me being so exhausted/not enthused when I was working. Half the time, things run well, the other half the time it makes me kind of want to yell at the top of my lungs. My dad says I just feel underemployed considering my major and what I could be doing.
I had an interview with a really cool lab company in Northridge which I would love to work for. Sadly, I haven't heard back from them yet (I think it went well though). I did get offered a job at a lab in Camarillo which I accepted. However, they wanted me to start Monday morning which I can't do since I still work at INO (and they won't let me go). I told them and I feel like they wanted me to feel guilty about how much work they put into rehiring me for me to leave so soon (and how they wouldn't have done so if they would have known I would have left). It's just kind of dissapointing because I spend my whole life trying to help people and putting the needs of people over my own (which can be frustrating at times), so when someone tries to guilt trip me when an opportunity comes around for ME, I just wish instead of thinking about themselves and what they're gonna do, they should be happy for me and the opportunity I have, you know?
But that sums up my emotions. It's too bad because I didn't really want to go back to INO in the first place and now I think I'll end up working 2 jobs at once just to appease everybody. And to think I was getting excited because I was gonna be in a steady 8-5 job M-F rather than in a schedule that varies greatly and pretty much eliminates my weekends and my chances to have time to myself and my family. Sometimes I wish I thought more about what I want rather than what I think other people need of me.