Thinking about thinking about doing something about life.
Usually in the spring/early summer (ie, now) I start to think about going back to school. I should talk to an admissions rep about how I would go about that (due to a fuckup on my part, I lost my financial aid a few years back. I'll have to pay for an entire semester out of pocket to get it back.) and exactly what I can do about transferring. I don't really want to go to the UW, but if I can, I should (pending transferring somewhere better... right?) I'm reaching a point where just being around college students would make me feel old.
But it's more than all that, really. It's a few things.
I have to consider the idea that I could just give up on the whole academic idea, and try to get involved in something skilled. Hell, even printer repair work would be stable as all hell. Not as exciting as underwater welding, but it would travel a little better.
And I really don't need a degree if I start really pouring effort in writing, although it certainly wouldn't hurt. Exposure to other peoples work could help me grow.
The thing is I'm kind of a flake when it comes to things holding my interest for long periods of time. (Even New Orleans. Hard to believe, but I don't listen to WWOZ every day. Just most days)
I'm mulling over the idea of talking to a doctor about the possibility of adult ADD. I'm not keen on the idea of getting pilled up, I certainly wouldn't mind the potential advantages thereof. Maybe even look into something to help with when my depression grinds me down.
I still want to learn about electronics, even if only as a hobby.
And part of me still really wants to go to MIT (although that's pretty much moot now, except maybe Grad School [a whole new headache to consider]).
Although on the other hand, I could see bartending my life away.
But I can't see myself managing a liquor store forever. Unless I started my own.
Or maybe I should get a business degree and start my own bar.
So... yeeeeah. You see my dilemma here.
But... I was Vice President of the Math Club. That's gotta mean something, right?
But it's more than all that, really. It's a few things.
I have to consider the idea that I could just give up on the whole academic idea, and try to get involved in something skilled. Hell, even printer repair work would be stable as all hell. Not as exciting as underwater welding, but it would travel a little better.
And I really don't need a degree if I start really pouring effort in writing, although it certainly wouldn't hurt. Exposure to other peoples work could help me grow.
The thing is I'm kind of a flake when it comes to things holding my interest for long periods of time. (Even New Orleans. Hard to believe, but I don't listen to WWOZ every day. Just most days)
I'm mulling over the idea of talking to a doctor about the possibility of adult ADD. I'm not keen on the idea of getting pilled up, I certainly wouldn't mind the potential advantages thereof. Maybe even look into something to help with when my depression grinds me down.
I still want to learn about electronics, even if only as a hobby.
And part of me still really wants to go to MIT (although that's pretty much moot now, except maybe Grad School [a whole new headache to consider]).
Although on the other hand, I could see bartending my life away.
But I can't see myself managing a liquor store forever. Unless I started my own.
Or maybe I should get a business degree and start my own bar.
So... yeeeeah. You see my dilemma here.
But... I was Vice President of the Math Club. That's gotta mean something, right?