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I hate most things. Most people, most situations, most places. It isn't how I should be. I should have joy. My life is considerably good. I don't go a day without ranting about how much I hate something.
I'm feeling pretty miserable about what Mt. Gilead's youth is becoming. It's good for a lot of people now, I know this... but it just isn't really doing anything for me. I just miss Ryan. We were really starting to get close. And... he just appealed to me more. Like, he was insane haha... And Adam is great and I love him to death... I'm just not really learning anything from him. And just the typical Mt. Gilead-ers... I just want to choke right now. I go there every Wednesday and I just want to scream at how fake they are. I really don't think they could walk into a place that is full of lost people without making a complete ass of themselves. At least I'll see Ryan, Cindy, Alex, and Jana in a few weeks. I really miss them. Really. I can't wait for them to get back so I can move to Newnan with them and help them start a church. That's going to change me so much. Just seeing, working with, and hanging out with two of the smartest people I've ever met. Just a year. I guess that isn't too bad.
...and don't even get me started on school.
I'm going to have to work on being more positive... or just more like Christ.
I am happy, though. Very happy. That might change in about a week or two, because of something I have to say. Oh, well. Hopefully God, Rob and Jordan will pull me through it. Heck, maybe it will turn out good. I hope. God, I hope.
Wow, what a dramatic ending haha. Live Journal... what a joke.
I'm feeling pretty miserable about what Mt. Gilead's youth is becoming. It's good for a lot of people now, I know this... but it just isn't really doing anything for me. I just miss Ryan. We were really starting to get close. And... he just appealed to me more. Like, he was insane haha... And Adam is great and I love him to death... I'm just not really learning anything from him. And just the typical Mt. Gilead-ers... I just want to choke right now. I go there every Wednesday and I just want to scream at how fake they are. I really don't think they could walk into a place that is full of lost people without making a complete ass of themselves. At least I'll see Ryan, Cindy, Alex, and Jana in a few weeks. I really miss them. Really. I can't wait for them to get back so I can move to Newnan with them and help them start a church. That's going to change me so much. Just seeing, working with, and hanging out with two of the smartest people I've ever met. Just a year. I guess that isn't too bad.
...and don't even get me started on school.
I'm going to have to work on being more positive... or just more like Christ.
I am happy, though. Very happy. That might change in about a week or two, because of something I have to say. Oh, well. Hopefully God, Rob and Jordan will pull me through it. Heck, maybe it will turn out good. I hope. God, I hope.
Wow, what a dramatic ending haha. Live Journal... what a joke.