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I was in denial. Like maybe this wouldn't couldn't happen. But not today the icing on the cake arrived in the mail. The state is taking my license away. They actually want it. So with all the shitty things that are happening, the times that need someone most my girlfriend of two years dumps me. Yeah thanks for being there! what about friends till 55? huh? I love you so much but it's not like it matters, i need you right now but it "doesn't matter" Whatever it hurts more than anything, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i hate this. i hate it everything that is happening right now. I DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO jesus fucking christ. It's so awesome that this doesn't hurt you at all, that you are some unhurtable iron person. Thanks for being senstive. But apparently i'm in need of growth and yeah sure i could grow some but you won't care because by the time that i'm who i am, you'll be someone different again. It's really cool that you can just give up on me. Kudos. "I love you." "That's not a good thing to say..." "I don't care, it's the truth."
I'd give anything to be laying with you in the freezing cold listening to coldplay
Matthew Allen Swartz.
Herro. I'm kay. I like you...a lot. And it may even be more. I don't know quite yet. But i know i'd feel indescribable once I do know. But I do know some things. I know that I'm at my happiest that I've been in a LOOOOOOOOONNG time whenever I'm with you. I know that everything bad leaves my mind and is no longer in existence when I'm with you. I know I feel peace when I'm in your arms. And security, calm, serenity. I know that you mean more to me than many things in my life ever did. And i know that when everything else goes wrong, there's always something right. and that's you. And I know that when I see those eyes, and bury my head into the crook of your neck, everything in the world is right. Everything. I know when I'm in class and dozing off for five minutes at a time, I think about you when I doze off...when I'm sleeping for those few precious minutes. I know when I'm sitting in class listening to the professor talk about inferential statistics, my mind is on you. And I also know that you're probably doing the same. Without the prof and the inferential statistics, that is. That's what i know. I just want you to know how amazingly glad/happy/amazing everything is when I'm with you. To know that we have such a strong connection between us, and one that will grow with time. And although I know this has already been said, let me just reiterate this a bit more. I care for you soo much. Soooo deeply. And it hurts me to know how much you've been hurt in the past, and that I can't erase those hurtful feelings inside you. But I want you to know that with every breath you take, I'm with you. I'm inside you, making everything that much better. And i'll always be there. I promise.
Love,
Kay
I'd give anything to be laying with you in the freezing cold listening to coldplay
Matthew Allen Swartz.
Herro. I'm kay. I like you...a lot. And it may even be more. I don't know quite yet. But i know i'd feel indescribable once I do know. But I do know some things. I know that I'm at my happiest that I've been in a LOOOOOOOOONNG time whenever I'm with you. I know that everything bad leaves my mind and is no longer in existence when I'm with you. I know I feel peace when I'm in your arms. And security, calm, serenity. I know that you mean more to me than many things in my life ever did. And i know that when everything else goes wrong, there's always something right. and that's you. And I know that when I see those eyes, and bury my head into the crook of your neck, everything in the world is right. Everything. I know when I'm in class and dozing off for five minutes at a time, I think about you when I doze off...when I'm sleeping for those few precious minutes. I know when I'm sitting in class listening to the professor talk about inferential statistics, my mind is on you. And I also know that you're probably doing the same. Without the prof and the inferential statistics, that is. That's what i know. I just want you to know how amazingly glad/happy/amazing everything is when I'm with you. To know that we have such a strong connection between us, and one that will grow with time. And although I know this has already been said, let me just reiterate this a bit more. I care for you soo much. Soooo deeply. And it hurts me to know how much you've been hurt in the past, and that I can't erase those hurtful feelings inside you. But I want you to know that with every breath you take, I'm with you. I'm inside you, making everything that much better. And i'll always be there. I promise.
Love,
Kay