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Well this week is bad.
yesterday seemed alright until the end.
I felt good yesterday, i bought chocolate and roses for scott because we've been arguing. and plus i just wanted to.
but yesterday was one of those days. I hit every yellow light, i was feeling sick, scott ran out of gas-so i had to pick him up-and even then i still hit every yellow light, i was sad because we usually watch laguna beach together but since i was sick he went to his friends house, and then the text at 11oclock telling me that his uncle had just died.
He is going through a lot right now.
Death is the hardest thing to deal with.
and even harder is that i don't know what to do to help,
actually--there is nothing i can do.
if there's one thing i know about when someone close to you dies is that you don't want to hear "im sorry"
and there really is nothing you can say or do--because the one thing you want is for that one person to be back.
I don't want to see him sad, i want everything to be ok, and i'm hoping very soon life can resume as usual.
I've also been sick this week, i went to 2 periods on monday, but i've been sitting in this horrible rainy weather ever since.
I spent 45 minutes today with Scott. and that was nice... even though i felt really sick, i really wanted to see him to beable to just sit with him... be there for him.
Death and tradgedy puts life into perspective.
and even though when that happens you tell yourself that you won't take things for granted
it only takes a couple months for you to loose sight of those very thoughts.
I always wonder why this happens.
It scares me.
It can happen to anyone at anytime.
and the worst thing to me to think is that every goodbye could possibly be the last.
it doesn't mean to live life in fear, but simply to really enjoy all of it. every bit of it.
Even with this, i just need to think more about when i argue with him, or for anyone in that matter, is it really worth it? i want to live life wonderfully.
And im hoping that me and him can resume the wonderful time we were having before school, work, and all of this got in the way of that pleasant time.
No more arguements, no more jealousy, no more wasting time.
I have hope for a better week next week.
yesterday seemed alright until the end.
I felt good yesterday, i bought chocolate and roses for scott because we've been arguing. and plus i just wanted to.
but yesterday was one of those days. I hit every yellow light, i was feeling sick, scott ran out of gas-so i had to pick him up-and even then i still hit every yellow light, i was sad because we usually watch laguna beach together but since i was sick he went to his friends house, and then the text at 11oclock telling me that his uncle had just died.
He is going through a lot right now.
Death is the hardest thing to deal with.
and even harder is that i don't know what to do to help,
actually--there is nothing i can do.
if there's one thing i know about when someone close to you dies is that you don't want to hear "im sorry"
and there really is nothing you can say or do--because the one thing you want is for that one person to be back.
I don't want to see him sad, i want everything to be ok, and i'm hoping very soon life can resume as usual.
I've also been sick this week, i went to 2 periods on monday, but i've been sitting in this horrible rainy weather ever since.
I spent 45 minutes today with Scott. and that was nice... even though i felt really sick, i really wanted to see him to beable to just sit with him... be there for him.
Death and tradgedy puts life into perspective.
and even though when that happens you tell yourself that you won't take things for granted
it only takes a couple months for you to loose sight of those very thoughts.
I always wonder why this happens.
It scares me.
It can happen to anyone at anytime.
and the worst thing to me to think is that every goodbye could possibly be the last.
it doesn't mean to live life in fear, but simply to really enjoy all of it. every bit of it.
Even with this, i just need to think more about when i argue with him, or for anyone in that matter, is it really worth it? i want to live life wonderfully.
And im hoping that me and him can resume the wonderful time we were having before school, work, and all of this got in the way of that pleasant time.
No more arguements, no more jealousy, no more wasting time.
I have hope for a better week next week.