Call me "Atlas."
I'm tired. And I hate the Second Law of Thermodynamics. aka entropy.
The entropy of Cinderella is exhausting me, and no matter what I do, I can't stop it. I can't reverse it. I can't kick the ass of the fifth kid in the town hall scene to get them moving. I can't list the "I can'ts" because I'm too tired and I know it's going to wear me down even more than I am.
I'm sorry I can't work with Meredith.
I'm sorry I can't keep everyone energized.
I'm sorry I goof off too much.
I'm sorry that this show is not the best that we will put on.
But that doesn't mean I want to talk it down. I heard that someone was talking down our show, and I was pissed. Why the fuck would you want to do that, I ask myself? Why? Don't tell people not to come to the show. Yes, we all have our misgivings about one thing or another. But to deliberately sabotage it is unprofessional, and immature. I'm tired of immaturity, in myself or others.
I want people to see the art in what we're doing. And I don't know how to make them see that. Is it possible to transcend our collective egoes for one project, a unified vision on that stage, that will be the best with what it has? Drama isn't just an after-school activity. Why not let ourselves be something magnificent? Why not work hard for it? Why not fucking blow people away with our productions? We can. I don't believe that talent is the only thing needed to put on a good show. It's a big role. No disputing that. But we create an art on that stage. We make something magnificent. Larger than ourselves. Please don't complain.
And don't forget, I have no right to say these things.
I'm too much of a fucking idealist. I'm imagining lights and action and incredible things and no one sees my vision. No one wants to open their eyes to see it. Aim high. Let's do this.
I can't even pep-talk right.
And it's not just Cinderella that gets me down. My friends getting bad grades makes me feel guilty. I hate feeling guilty because I'm smart or good at something. I think we put stock in things that don't matter. We do. Try not to, okay? Because when you do, you take a lot of joy out of your life, and I think that if there's one thing we should try to do is not to take the joy out of our life.
The entropy of Cinderella is exhausting me, and no matter what I do, I can't stop it. I can't reverse it. I can't kick the ass of the fifth kid in the town hall scene to get them moving. I can't list the "I can'ts" because I'm too tired and I know it's going to wear me down even more than I am.
I'm sorry I can't work with Meredith.
I'm sorry I can't keep everyone energized.
I'm sorry I goof off too much.
I'm sorry that this show is not the best that we will put on.
But that doesn't mean I want to talk it down. I heard that someone was talking down our show, and I was pissed. Why the fuck would you want to do that, I ask myself? Why? Don't tell people not to come to the show. Yes, we all have our misgivings about one thing or another. But to deliberately sabotage it is unprofessional, and immature. I'm tired of immaturity, in myself or others.
I want people to see the art in what we're doing. And I don't know how to make them see that. Is it possible to transcend our collective egoes for one project, a unified vision on that stage, that will be the best with what it has? Drama isn't just an after-school activity. Why not let ourselves be something magnificent? Why not work hard for it? Why not fucking blow people away with our productions? We can. I don't believe that talent is the only thing needed to put on a good show. It's a big role. No disputing that. But we create an art on that stage. We make something magnificent. Larger than ourselves. Please don't complain.
And don't forget, I have no right to say these things.
I'm too much of a fucking idealist. I'm imagining lights and action and incredible things and no one sees my vision. No one wants to open their eyes to see it. Aim high. Let's do this.
I can't even pep-talk right.
And it's not just Cinderella that gets me down. My friends getting bad grades makes me feel guilty. I hate feeling guilty because I'm smart or good at something. I think we put stock in things that don't matter. We do. Try not to, okay? Because when you do, you take a lot of joy out of your life, and I think that if there's one thing we should try to do is not to take the joy out of our life.