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hes an asshole but for some reason i still love him. even if we havent talked in months.
god, i beg you to give me the strength to move on.
please, just this once.
let me have what i want.
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i'm running on 2 hours of sleep.
i got a new job (thanks rachel!) as a server at sunny han's and i needed a new food handler's card, so i did that this morning.
and in an hour i'm going to jail........ to pick up matttt with gio.
then i've got shopping to do with a new friend.
THEN, theres 2 parties that i will be attending tonight.
my plan is to stay sober, but if not, whatever.
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life is good.
its kinda lonely.
especially after you were with someone for so long, and especially when you were completely in love with each other at this exact time last year.
its lonely but i'm not looking for anyone.
no one to kiss, hug, or have a crush on.
i'm not interested, and i guess i have to focus on making myself happy instead of relying on a boyfriend.
i love my friends though... to death. they make me so happy.
i havent seen beth much lately, but its hard when i'm broke to go to portland.
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since i've got a new job, i can save money!
i'll have a car in no time.
which means i can move to seattle.
but if that doesnt work out, i'm thinking about getting a 4 bedroom house for me and the boys.
i hang out with them everyday, and i dont get sick of them, so it makes sense.
plus it'd be cheap.
god, i beg you to give me the strength to move on.
please, just this once.
let me have what i want.
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i'm running on 2 hours of sleep.
i got a new job (thanks rachel!) as a server at sunny han's and i needed a new food handler's card, so i did that this morning.
and in an hour i'm going to jail........ to pick up matttt with gio.
then i've got shopping to do with a new friend.
THEN, theres 2 parties that i will be attending tonight.
my plan is to stay sober, but if not, whatever.
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life is good.
its kinda lonely.
especially after you were with someone for so long, and especially when you were completely in love with each other at this exact time last year.
its lonely but i'm not looking for anyone.
no one to kiss, hug, or have a crush on.
i'm not interested, and i guess i have to focus on making myself happy instead of relying on a boyfriend.
i love my friends though... to death. they make me so happy.
i havent seen beth much lately, but its hard when i'm broke to go to portland.
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since i've got a new job, i can save money!
i'll have a car in no time.
which means i can move to seattle.
but if that doesnt work out, i'm thinking about getting a 4 bedroom house for me and the boys.
i hang out with them everyday, and i dont get sick of them, so it makes sense.
plus it'd be cheap.