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i am so incredibly bitter and cynical and im waiting for it to end because it is spawned from my unhappiness but even when i feel good and when i feel like things are going well i am still bitter about things and cynical to almost everyone regaurding just about everything. a nice run on there and ill do it again. i have began to think that it may require someone else help to pull me out of this even though thinking that way maybe a bad thing seeing as the lack of such a person may become my reason for perpetuating it all. im tired of run ons. i dont really know whats going on. i dont feel much for anything except pesimistic feelings. theres no much that makes me feel good and there are few things that i dont cut into a million peices with strong, sharp opinions, which are always very cynical and bias. i just dont understand it and i dont want it, but there is absolutly no one around me that has either the time, desire or ability to help me out of it.