Thoughts from Steve....
Alright, so I guess I've had a few things on my mind lately for reasons I don't understand. 1) The captain planet theme song and 2) what the fuck am I doing with myself? I've recently began to realize more and more that though I was trying to achieve simplicity in my life, this just isn't going to happen. Life isn't simple. In fact it's fairly complex, which I won't go into a lot. What I have realized is that really life is defined by a series of moments. Granted some moments fade and don't leave a lasting impact, they just become a footnote in your personal history, but really moments shape your life. A certain feeling, a realization, heartbreak, falling in love, making love, they way it felt to hold someone, the first time you saw someone and said "that's her," failures, triumphs, the trials and tribulations that accompany life. These moments are what shape who we are and what we're about. There may be moments you'd want to get back, moments you never asked for, moments that you didn't need at that time, but the fact is we can't change the past, however we can shape the future. We can work to create moments and by doing this life can roll along generally copasetic. I think my outlook now is to not take any moment for granted, because life can be changed in a moment and I don't want to be looking back saying "if only I would have..." or have others looking back saying "I never knew." A good friend of mine put it very well when philosophying about hugs. Pretty much he hugs at every chance he gets, because in theory it could be the last hug, or last exchange with that person, the last moment. And really, why end at hugs. Tell people how you feel, don't be afraid to take a risk and put your heart out there, pick up the phone instead of looking at it waiting for it to ring, write a letter, do something. And do something you enjoy. As cliche as this is, life is to short to waste time being pissed off about the things that piss you off, or the menial shit that taints otherwise good experiences. Do what you love, and love what you do. This gem has given me reason to not go to class tomorrow or really any day, and spend the day practicing, or enjoying music, enjoying life. We are really the only ones who can make ourselves happy, and I think i'm realizing this more and more, and godwilling this will help put me on a path to something a hell of a lot more fruitful then what I'm doing right now. Seriously, go out and seize the moment.