So, it's been a while since I posted properly.
What's going on with me?
Well, I'll try and summarise.
* My baby brother got married, and it all went off without a hitch. He seems really happy, and I'm trying to let any cynical commentary sink down into the back of my brain. It's true, my family is renowned for making hasty marriages that don't tend to last, but who knows. He may have found his soul mate. Who am I to judge?
* My anxiety has been sky high. Agoraphobia has been bad, barely leaving the house bad. The doc changed my Pindolol to Propranolol. No noticeable improvement, but perhaps I just need to up the dosage some more.
* Have submitted my forms for disability. It will be a while before I know whether I've been approved. I'm really hoping they just give it to me, or reduce my capacity down further, because I am really not up to dealing with looking for work right now, considering that simply going for shopping takes a lot of psyching myself up.
* That said, I went to Sexpo with
alisso last weekend. It's something we've been wanting to do for years, and since she probably won't be in Oz when it's on next year, it was sort of our last opportunity. Bought a little purple bullet vibe to fit in the Gemini, a glass dildo (because they're awesome) and a pair of gorgeously soft polar fleecy cuffs. Also saw some genuine suede cuffs that I'm coveting like whoa. Considering the place was hot and crowded and noisy, I handled it remarkably well. It probably helped that I had a few days' warning, and could brace myself for it, much like the Living End concert last year when I was in the mosh pit. (Me! In a mosh pit! I know, hard to believe.)
* Been scanning like you wouldn't believe. If there's anyone out there who wants recipe books, let me know and I'll message you the link. Caught myself in some OCD thinking last night, and had to have a break for a few hours, though. REALLY not what I need right now. Checking behaviour on top of the rest would just send me loopy, I'm sure.
* Been gaming for the first time in goodness knows when. Finished Sypro: A New Beginning and FINALLY started playing The Eternal Night, like a year and a half or so after I bought it. Enjoying it so far, even if Billy West is nowhere near as good a Sparx as David Spade was. I miss the old Spyro games though, with the gateways and the separate world and the 100 gem completions. This linear play is kind of pedestrian, even if the orchestral music is rocking. Have to buy Dawn of the Dragon, and am on the lookout for a cheap 2nd hand copy at my local game shops.
Also playing Jak & Daxter again, since seeing there's a new one coming out that will follow on after Jak 3. Most of the way through the first game now, and looking forward to the massive free roaming worlds of 2 and 3. I'm just hoping the fourth game lives up to the trilogy.
* There has been some positive behaviour from both Pippin and Scarlett the last few days, and I'm going to try and get her more integrated back into the household again. I don't anticipate her hanging out in the same as the dogs any time soon, but she's been much less timid, and if I can work with Pip enough that he doesn't get so hysterically excited at the sight of her, we might be able to get some kind of harmony going on that's better than the gating system we've had going on.
Well, I'll try and summarise.
* My baby brother got married, and it all went off without a hitch. He seems really happy, and I'm trying to let any cynical commentary sink down into the back of my brain. It's true, my family is renowned for making hasty marriages that don't tend to last, but who knows. He may have found his soul mate. Who am I to judge?
* My anxiety has been sky high. Agoraphobia has been bad, barely leaving the house bad. The doc changed my Pindolol to Propranolol. No noticeable improvement, but perhaps I just need to up the dosage some more.
* Have submitted my forms for disability. It will be a while before I know whether I've been approved. I'm really hoping they just give it to me, or reduce my capacity down further, because I am really not up to dealing with looking for work right now, considering that simply going for shopping takes a lot of psyching myself up.
* That said, I went to Sexpo with
alisso last weekend. It's something we've been wanting to do for years, and since she probably won't be in Oz when it's on next year, it was sort of our last opportunity. Bought a little purple bullet vibe to fit in the Gemini, a glass dildo (because they're awesome) and a pair of gorgeously soft polar fleecy cuffs. Also saw some genuine suede cuffs that I'm coveting like whoa. Considering the place was hot and crowded and noisy, I handled it remarkably well. It probably helped that I had a few days' warning, and could brace myself for it, much like the Living End concert last year when I was in the mosh pit. (Me! In a mosh pit! I know, hard to believe.)
* Been scanning like you wouldn't believe. If there's anyone out there who wants recipe books, let me know and I'll message you the link. Caught myself in some OCD thinking last night, and had to have a break for a few hours, though. REALLY not what I need right now. Checking behaviour on top of the rest would just send me loopy, I'm sure.
* Been gaming for the first time in goodness knows when. Finished Sypro: A New Beginning and FINALLY started playing The Eternal Night, like a year and a half or so after I bought it. Enjoying it so far, even if Billy West is nowhere near as good a Sparx as David Spade was. I miss the old Spyro games though, with the gateways and the separate world and the 100 gem completions. This linear play is kind of pedestrian, even if the orchestral music is rocking. Have to buy Dawn of the Dragon, and am on the lookout for a cheap 2nd hand copy at my local game shops.
Also playing Jak & Daxter again, since seeing there's a new one coming out that will follow on after Jak 3. Most of the way through the first game now, and looking forward to the massive free roaming worlds of 2 and 3. I'm just hoping the fourth game lives up to the trilogy.
* There has been some positive behaviour from both Pippin and Scarlett the last few days, and I'm going to try and get her more integrated back into the household again. I don't anticipate her hanging out in the same as the dogs any time soon, but she's been much less timid, and if I can work with Pip enough that he doesn't get so hysterically excited at the sight of her, we might be able to get some kind of harmony going on that's better than the gating system we've had going on.