(no subject)

[iamsavannah]

right now im missing my best friends. talking to sarah has made me feel extremely calm and so sure of things. its strange. distance from people is necessary. i know. but it always hits me so unexpectedly. like i thought i was somehow able to avoid these painful feelings. its a different kind of miss than a partner. its like feeling as though you'll lose touch. like it wont ever be the same again. and it makes you cry. and it makes you feel lonely in the most empty, lonely kind of way.

but i know this is what i need. and that these feelings are sad, but false because. my friends will still be there.

xoxo