Here, There, Everywhere.
I've been booked solid since I've been here. I almost have no free time to myself. And I almost feel like people are possibly fighting for my time behind my back. Thus far I've got to see so many of my friends! I kicked it with Matt last night. First time I've seen him in over a year. He has changed so much. It's strange how in just a short amount of time, thing's have dramatically changed.
.The city.
Wow how the city has changed. Not much, but just a lil' change can seem like ALOT of change. And Rio Rancho. That city is going to be O.U.T of control. Matt told me I was "in the middle" of Rio and I felt like I was out in the middle of nowhere. Supposedly Rio is supposed to grow into this big glorious city. Whatever. Rio Rancho still sucks and I have no desire to live there.
.My Friends.
EVERYONE is different. Their attitudes, personalties, views on life, and well the way the look of course. Some have changed for the worse. But most everyone has gotten "cooler" since the last time I got to really hang with them.
.Me.
During the time that I was in cottonwood I felt like the biggest fucking loser of all time! I felt like I had became this dull lifeless fuck with nothing "cool" to say. I have now realized that I'm not a dull lifeless fucking loser. In fact, I'm rockstar. lol. Cottonwood has only suppressed me! I am now free! I can breath! (ah such fresh city air) It's now time for me to just relax, and smoke some fucking pot. I'm a different person now. I see that and my friends see that as well. I've had so many people tell me how much I have changed. And how much better off I feel.
.Looking Back.
Last night at Matt's house I got a chance to really look back. He was going through some pictures of the last party him and I were at. I, looked like fucking shit! I never allowed pictures of me to be taken when I was all strung out. And the pics I saw last night were the first pictures I've seen of the aftermath of my pathetic addiction. I'm no longer that person. And I will never be that person again. EVER. You put a line of that shit in front of me and I'll take your fucking straw and blow it in the other direction. Fuck that shit.
.Going forward.
So now it's come down to it. I've had time to "grow up" a lil bit. I've had time to focus myself. I just never realized it. And now I must get off my ass and get my life started. I see great thing's coming to me in my future. But not untill I work on making them happen. Chirs is back. and Chris is back for good. My life is better now. well for today atleast.
.The city.
Wow how the city has changed. Not much, but just a lil' change can seem like ALOT of change. And Rio Rancho. That city is going to be O.U.T of control. Matt told me I was "in the middle" of Rio and I felt like I was out in the middle of nowhere. Supposedly Rio is supposed to grow into this big glorious city. Whatever. Rio Rancho still sucks and I have no desire to live there.
.My Friends.
EVERYONE is different. Their attitudes, personalties, views on life, and well the way the look of course. Some have changed for the worse. But most everyone has gotten "cooler" since the last time I got to really hang with them.
.Me.
During the time that I was in cottonwood I felt like the biggest fucking loser of all time! I felt like I had became this dull lifeless fuck with nothing "cool" to say. I have now realized that I'm not a dull lifeless fucking loser. In fact, I'm rockstar. lol. Cottonwood has only suppressed me! I am now free! I can breath! (ah such fresh city air) It's now time for me to just relax, and smoke some fucking pot. I'm a different person now. I see that and my friends see that as well. I've had so many people tell me how much I have changed. And how much better off I feel.
.Looking Back.
Last night at Matt's house I got a chance to really look back. He was going through some pictures of the last party him and I were at. I, looked like fucking shit! I never allowed pictures of me to be taken when I was all strung out. And the pics I saw last night were the first pictures I've seen of the aftermath of my pathetic addiction. I'm no longer that person. And I will never be that person again. EVER. You put a line of that shit in front of me and I'll take your fucking straw and blow it in the other direction. Fuck that shit.
.Going forward.
So now it's come down to it. I've had time to "grow up" a lil bit. I've had time to focus myself. I just never realized it. And now I must get off my ass and get my life started. I see great thing's coming to me in my future. But not untill I work on making them happen. Chirs is back. and Chris is back for good. My life is better now. well for today atleast.