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could things be any crazier? so i may not be going to college? sometimes i think that i don't care and i'm ready to do things on my own but the truth is i've been scared of the future ever since you left. not that i want you in it i just knew things would be taken care of. i don't want to depend on my dad anymore though. i may have hurt him but he hurt me twice as bad. and i find myself thinking that throwing everything away would be so wonderful. and i think about the cake away and whether i wish i had saved it for myself. everything is changing so fast and nothing is stable, i really don't think i've felt secure in 4 months. i just feel myself going crazy. but i'm at home and i don't know how i made it here tonight. sophie is making me easy mac.