oh hey whats up
i worked a whole lot this week. made lots of money. good stuff.
i start geico on monday.
i'm pretty excited about it a little bit.
i'm so fuckin tired though.
and i been thinkin.
about a bunch of things
i'm looking forward to school starting again.
kinda weird i think, but i'm interested to see how i handle 6 classes and 25 hours a week at geico.
i'm out to prove something to myself and that's all that matters.
i'm not doing anything for anyone else anymore.
it's for me from now on.
i've accepted certain things about people in general that i think a lot of people wouldn't appreciate my sharing but i'll share anyway.
well it's really this one big thing.
we are all extremely selfish at heart.
everything we do is for our own benefit.
even when we do nice things for people, think about it. why do you do it?
we like when people are grateful. we get a little buzz out of that extra attention we get for our good deed.
i dunno. i really can't put it into words.
but i was thinking about it. and everyone talks about how my uncle fucked up and did things without looking out for people around him.
you know what? it's not his problem. it wasn't his problem. people live their lives. and if you can't carry on with your life and keep on living it once a person is gone, well then that's your problem, not the person who died.
for all any of us know, this life is the only one we have. that's why i can't occupy myself with religion. i don't need to speculate about life after death to help frame how i'm going to live my life now. this is why religion is meaningless to me. not because i'm not mature enough to handle thinking about things in the bigger picture or any of that nonsense. i'm out to live my life to the fullest the best way i can, however the fuck i want to live it, and if i have to take shit for it come judgement day, so be it. it doesn't matter.
anyway that all has to do with the whole doing things for myself from now on thing.
i'm not gonna feel bad if i disappoint people. fuck. again, it's not my problem.
so yeah, i feel like i'm growing up in different ways now. i find myself thinking about different things.
i'm at a different point in my life i feel.
like tonight, we were gonna go to shoreham which i was down with.
then it turned into going to a prom party.
i've been out of high school for 2 years.
i don't want anything to do with a prom party.
that's just not my crowd.
bleh. i probably won't have anything to say for a while again.
peace
i start geico on monday.
i'm pretty excited about it a little bit.
i'm so fuckin tired though.
and i been thinkin.
about a bunch of things
i'm looking forward to school starting again.
kinda weird i think, but i'm interested to see how i handle 6 classes and 25 hours a week at geico.
i'm out to prove something to myself and that's all that matters.
i'm not doing anything for anyone else anymore.
it's for me from now on.
i've accepted certain things about people in general that i think a lot of people wouldn't appreciate my sharing but i'll share anyway.
well it's really this one big thing.
we are all extremely selfish at heart.
everything we do is for our own benefit.
even when we do nice things for people, think about it. why do you do it?
we like when people are grateful. we get a little buzz out of that extra attention we get for our good deed.
i dunno. i really can't put it into words.
but i was thinking about it. and everyone talks about how my uncle fucked up and did things without looking out for people around him.
you know what? it's not his problem. it wasn't his problem. people live their lives. and if you can't carry on with your life and keep on living it once a person is gone, well then that's your problem, not the person who died.
for all any of us know, this life is the only one we have. that's why i can't occupy myself with religion. i don't need to speculate about life after death to help frame how i'm going to live my life now. this is why religion is meaningless to me. not because i'm not mature enough to handle thinking about things in the bigger picture or any of that nonsense. i'm out to live my life to the fullest the best way i can, however the fuck i want to live it, and if i have to take shit for it come judgement day, so be it. it doesn't matter.
anyway that all has to do with the whole doing things for myself from now on thing.
i'm not gonna feel bad if i disappoint people. fuck. again, it's not my problem.
so yeah, i feel like i'm growing up in different ways now. i find myself thinking about different things.
i'm at a different point in my life i feel.
like tonight, we were gonna go to shoreham which i was down with.
then it turned into going to a prom party.
i've been out of high school for 2 years.
i don't want anything to do with a prom party.
that's just not my crowd.
bleh. i probably won't have anything to say for a while again.
peace