hoping for tomorrow
Why is it so hard to grow with the Lord? I love God & i go to church, and i try to be faithful, but it seems like for every year i grow older i've only grown about one year in walk. I go through phases where i'll read my Bible every day, and than i go other times i'll go weeks or ever months where i'll hardly read it at all. i just don't get myself sometimes, cause i know that God is the most important thing in my life, but sometimes i just put him on the backburner. i mean i've been reading my Bible since i've been in Minnesota, but not on a consistent basis like i wish i would. prayer is even tougher. sometimes when i'm praying it seems like i'm just talking to myself. i know that he's there & he listens, but too often doubt creeps in. it's just like David Bazan says "he's just not physical", but i guess thats what makes it faith isn't it. "the substance of things hoped for & the evidence of things not seen" as the Bible says. oh well, i might not finish in first place, but at least i'm running the race.