commerce city colorado...
i dont like to be lied to or decieved in an attempt to protect my
feelings or because someone fears retalliation when a better offer comes
along. how am i supposed to grow and learn to deal with lifes ups and
downs that way? thats not what friends do. it doesnt help me. it makes me
feel fake. it makes things feel phony. it makes me feel like i'm in the
way. not to mention it hurts my feelings when someone cant be honest
with me. am i that intrusive and imposing?i talked to kaarin for a
long time last night. she sounds happy and bubbly like she usually is.
shes holding on to hope about what her doctor told her...that a cure will
likely be found in her lifetime. i remember when frequent surgery for
this was commonplace. shes anxious about her school trip to DC in may.
she said she plans to spit on the steps of the capitol buildingi
leave for pennsylvania today. i'm a little sad as expected...but i think
i'm dealing with it much better than usual. lushie has been
tremendously patient, gentle and kind to me these past two weeks. she
done a lot to help me find an acceptable state of mind.
<3
feelings or because someone fears retalliation when a better offer comes
along. how am i supposed to grow and learn to deal with lifes ups and
downs that way? thats not what friends do. it doesnt help me. it makes me
feel fake. it makes things feel phony. it makes me feel like i'm in the
way. not to mention it hurts my feelings when someone cant be honest
with me. am i that intrusive and imposing?i talked to kaarin for a
long time last night. she sounds happy and bubbly like she usually is.
shes holding on to hope about what her doctor told her...that a cure will
likely be found in her lifetime. i remember when frequent surgery for
this was commonplace. shes anxious about her school trip to DC in may.
she said she plans to spit on the steps of the capitol buildingi
leave for pennsylvania today. i'm a little sad as expected...but i think
i'm dealing with it much better than usual. lushie has been
tremendously patient, gentle and kind to me these past two weeks. she
done a lot to help me find an acceptable state of mind.
<3