May 20, 2005 18:00
Lately I've been feeling lethargic. I've shat away endless hours in front of my computer, either playing games or browsing the Ween forums, but these activites are becoming less and less fulfilling. I don't ever really feel like hanging out much anymore. Whenever I wake up in the morning and don't have to go to work I just end up looking at the clock, then deciding I have nothing worthwhile to do and going back to sleep. I've been out of school for what, two weeks now, and I already wish I was back in. At least my life has purpose while I'm attending classes. I've got ideas for a couple of stories but I can't seem to get myself to even begin them. I feel like I need a new spark to my life, something to jolt me out of this haze and get my mind flowing and producing. I need rhythm and drive. I need energy and feeling. Maybe I should start doing cocaine.