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Yea so today was pretty cool and recently got really shitty but oh well, that's my life I guess.
Saw The Used...AMAZING
I hate my living situation right now. It hurts me so much to live here. I'm trying my best to be a good friend, but it's really fucking hard. Some days I feel like just running away and not looking back, but I couldn't do that, not until my bills are paid.
So I think I'm going to save up as much money as humanly possible and move with in the next 2 years. I need to get out of this state. Too many memories of what I wanted out of life that didn't happen. I need to get away and start over it feels like.
I'm glad she's happy, but at the same time I'm hurt that she's already ready to go out with him, makes me feel like shit. Well, at least the poem I wrote the other day still holds true I guess.
To quote Taking Back Sunday "I want to hate you so bad, but I can't"
So yea, congradulations I guess, I hope you get what you want. And if I'm being a shitty friend lately to you, I'm sorry, I'm trying my best, but it's hard, it's really fucking hard.
I think I might set up my room at my aunts soon and start staying there a few nights a week, maybe that will help. But then again, maybe it will hurt more, who knows.
This is fucking gay and I hate it. I never really wanted this. There were times I was upset and everything, but still, I wanted to be with you forever.
I wish I had some alcohal so I could make a toast...."Here's to being second best."
Saw The Used...AMAZING
I hate my living situation right now. It hurts me so much to live here. I'm trying my best to be a good friend, but it's really fucking hard. Some days I feel like just running away and not looking back, but I couldn't do that, not until my bills are paid.
So I think I'm going to save up as much money as humanly possible and move with in the next 2 years. I need to get out of this state. Too many memories of what I wanted out of life that didn't happen. I need to get away and start over it feels like.
I'm glad she's happy, but at the same time I'm hurt that she's already ready to go out with him, makes me feel like shit. Well, at least the poem I wrote the other day still holds true I guess.
To quote Taking Back Sunday "I want to hate you so bad, but I can't"
So yea, congradulations I guess, I hope you get what you want. And if I'm being a shitty friend lately to you, I'm sorry, I'm trying my best, but it's hard, it's really fucking hard.
I think I might set up my room at my aunts soon and start staying there a few nights a week, maybe that will help. But then again, maybe it will hurt more, who knows.
This is fucking gay and I hate it. I never really wanted this. There were times I was upset and everything, but still, I wanted to be with you forever.
I wish I had some alcohal so I could make a toast...."Here's to being second best."