just thinking
schools over. tomorrow most likely ill go pick up my diploma for school and close out any other school related accounts. the real world is finally in front of me and i feel like im looking up at the top of a skyscraper saying "how the hell am i going to get there." recently i received an offer to check out possible employment at a design agency down in st. pete. it looks very promising, but i still have to call and get a meeting set up. all i have to say to anyone who hasn't fully graduated yet is after graduation, you feel so out of place. your whole life is based on learning and growing until this point. if you dont know what you want to do or you mess up, it really didnt matter until now. but after graduation we are all confronted with the test of life. no more studying allowed (at least for a while anyway).
as i ponder about this i realize some things. i love art, always have, and always will. ive always been a special kid and with my unique personality plus a good imagination, im pretty good at graphic design. what ive realized after graduating though is graphic design is enjoyable for me, but it is not my real passion. when i recently discovered this, i kinda freaked inside because i just spent the last three years becoming a designer. i am a designer and no turning back (gota pay back like 70 grand in loans). what im trying to say as my brain is shutting down at 1 in the morning is there is another side of me that is filled with passion.
art for me is the product of stress/frustration/sadness/depression. it is a release. but my passion lies in rollerblading along with marine biology. i know everyone knows i like rollerblading. if you don't, than you don't know me well. Anyway, in reality, ill never make money at it so that is going to remain a serious hobby as long as im able to do it. the thing that might surprise people is my love for marine biology (love for the sea.) i love water period. many floridians say this, but this love is deeper than any love. put it this way, if i died on the beach, i would die happy. so with this, i think someday i might go back to school to become a marine biologist. i dont want to be in a lab. instead i want to work out in the field on the water, observing species of life and helping to preserve/restore our beaches while they are still able to be saved. i wont make much money doing this, but by then i should have enough money that i shouldn't have to worry.
the main message everyone should get from this is that when you graduate, it is not the end. the end is when you want everything to be over. we are given a body to do many things in life. not just one profession. i truly believe this. to anyone who is still in school, or thinking about going; just follow your heart straight up. people say that, but it is so true. and if you have a change of heart, be patient like me and in due time, youll find your way to the end. remember, true happiness is being able to be happy through the good times and the bad as we journey towards an end (whatever that may be). as always, much love to anyone who reads this. we all have a reason we are here and don't forget that.
as i ponder about this i realize some things. i love art, always have, and always will. ive always been a special kid and with my unique personality plus a good imagination, im pretty good at graphic design. what ive realized after graduating though is graphic design is enjoyable for me, but it is not my real passion. when i recently discovered this, i kinda freaked inside because i just spent the last three years becoming a designer. i am a designer and no turning back (gota pay back like 70 grand in loans). what im trying to say as my brain is shutting down at 1 in the morning is there is another side of me that is filled with passion.
art for me is the product of stress/frustration/sadness/depression. it is a release. but my passion lies in rollerblading along with marine biology. i know everyone knows i like rollerblading. if you don't, than you don't know me well. Anyway, in reality, ill never make money at it so that is going to remain a serious hobby as long as im able to do it. the thing that might surprise people is my love for marine biology (love for the sea.) i love water period. many floridians say this, but this love is deeper than any love. put it this way, if i died on the beach, i would die happy. so with this, i think someday i might go back to school to become a marine biologist. i dont want to be in a lab. instead i want to work out in the field on the water, observing species of life and helping to preserve/restore our beaches while they are still able to be saved. i wont make much money doing this, but by then i should have enough money that i shouldn't have to worry.
the main message everyone should get from this is that when you graduate, it is not the end. the end is when you want everything to be over. we are given a body to do many things in life. not just one profession. i truly believe this. to anyone who is still in school, or thinking about going; just follow your heart straight up. people say that, but it is so true. and if you have a change of heart, be patient like me and in due time, youll find your way to the end. remember, true happiness is being able to be happy through the good times and the bad as we journey towards an end (whatever that may be). as always, much love to anyone who reads this. we all have a reason we are here and don't forget that.