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so, long story short, my cousin got herself knocked up. That would be my 18 year old cousin. The same cousin who has the loser boyfriend shes had for the last 2 years that everyone's been praying she dump like yesterdays garbage. The same cousin who is this close to graduating high school and who was supposed to go to college but now obviously that plan is shot. Of course, that loser of hers didnt go to college - in fact he didnt even graduate high school - so i guess theyll be like 2 peas in a pod. I am just so fucking pissed, and disappointed, and shocked about this. I just don't get some girls sometimes! She had SO much going for her - shes beautiful, smart, athletic, sweet...everything this guy is not. Why do these beautiful, smart, sweet girls always end up with these fucked up, goin-nowhere, asshole loser punks?! I know he's older, and I'm sure that was attractive to her, and he's like a bad boy, tattoos and all, and plays guitar - God such a cliche now that im writing it. Of course, her parents (my aunt & uncle) have already discussed options like abortion and adoption, but shes not listening. She wants to have it, and raise it with this guy, who, last i checked, didnt even have a steady job or anything. How is she supposing they do this you ask? I have no fuckin clue! My cousin has a job actually, a part time job shes been working after school for the last year to save money for college, but now thats shes knocked up i dont know how she thinks theyre going to keep her. Maybe they'll take pity on her i dont know. She only works like 20 hours a week though....whatever. I guess she can do whatever the fuck she wants..its just she's like a little sister to me! I want to punch this motherfucker in the face! I kind of want to fly home to NY and help my family deal with this. Maybe i'll ask my boss tomorrow...i jst feel helpless not being able to do anything ya know? Maybe i can talk some sense into her or something.
You know whats funny? I was talking to my brother this afternoon after we heard the news and he (who is actually closer to Amy) told me he thinks she may have gotten knocked up on purpose. My brother says he talked to our other cousin like 6 months ago or something and that Amy had secretly told him she thought she may be pregnant and that she was actually excited about it or some stupid shit (i guess it was a false alarm, but then doesnt that seem like obviously they dont use protection and she was just waiting for this to happen). Fuck! its not like she's from a bad home - my aunt and uncle are great! So what the fuck is wrong with her, why is TRYING to fuck up her life??
Hopefully i can just get enough money together to fly home this week or the next and see what the hell is going on.
Edit: I just realized after reading this over that perhaps I should not have criticized Sarah Palin so harshly before - apparently my cousin has turned into her daughter Bristol. Funny how life works...