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My grandfather really doesn't look good. It's so hard to be with him, because I can see the pain he is in, and I can see how much it hurts my mom, although she never overtly shows it. I've never had to deal with death where it affects me to where I can completely comprehend it. I don't anyone really close to me has died even in my short lifespan, so I don't know how I'm going to deal with it. Other than that, things are going beautifully.