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Well until last week I loved my life...Now I can't help to wish it would end. Oh my gosh there is so much drama going on in my life right now that I just can't take it anymore. I need to get away! I honestly feel like just leaving...not going anywhere just walking in one direction until I starve or get hit by a car. Tonight I thought I could talk to someone about somthing thats really been bothering me lately but it turns out that hes involved in the drama......fuck. I honestly feel like shit. Then he sent me a text and said "........I hope one of you is happy" (he sent it to another person too) but serisouly yeah I'm happy alright....I talked to Brisa a little bit about it and within the first 5 words I broke down and started to cry. I mean happy people cry all the time.........yeah I'm fuckin happy. UHHHHHH I honestly am so full of mixed emotions right now that I feel like a soda thats been shaken for hours. I think I'm gonna take tomorrow off. I'm sick and just need a day to collect myself. Why the hell does my life have to be like this? I honestly thought all this fucking drama was out of my life then it just randomly comes back. So far I've been acused of....
Making up 2 of my friends
Being the biggest slut in the school
Lieing about my sex life
Making a porno with scott
And being suicidal...(let me just say that if I was I would have killed my self years ago)....
Ok I honestly think I'm just gonna find some random person just so I can get it out. I mean I really need to talk about it but it seems like no one cares to listen...and those who do are the ones I don't want to know. Today I was faced with a huge huge huge decision and I had to fight myself to make the right one, I now understand why someone said I have more control then I think...
-Erin