i spent them waiting here for you

[iamloud]

i can not get this paper out. it is the "what are you going to be in ten years" for kyle. i have tried starting it four times. it due tomorrow. it makes me want to cry. i have been avoiding thinking about shit and it just makes me worry and freak cause i have no idea what i want. then i think of what tale said at yld. and i want to write about that but it never comes off strong enough, and just sounds middle-school esque. i don't know. bah!

god i hate myself when i think. everything is just so low. i am only feeling good when i am around good people. at least that happens sometimes. the last week or so i haven't had any desire to go to prom. well at least get dressed up for prom. i hate myself.

bad news bears all around this day.