Into the strenuous briefness
It's hard to think about how quickly this semester is going.
I'm driving to Oregon right after school gets out with some of my friends. It will take about two weeks round trip--and I'm pretty excited.
Over Spring Break, I am splitting my time between Ohio and Kentucky because that's where my parents are. But secretly (or not so secretly, I suppose) I want to go to Linden and just sleep for a week in Michigan. And even more than that, I want a real spring break, a vacation with my friends somewhere warm where I could get a tan and go swimming. I've never had a spring break like that, and I don't think I ever I will. It would be nice though.
This summer I am staying in Pittsburgh. Joshua and I are subletting a place together. It's decent and cheap, both of which are good. Close to campus, which will be useful for me--if all goes well, I will be working in Langley this summer.
Sometimes I feel like Joshua and I don't connect anymore, at least not as much as we used to. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I didn't really see him at all last semester and I don't see him much this semester. So I'm looking forward to living with him, because maybe that will help me feel close to him again.
I've felt a bit alienated from all of my friends lately. I think I am the last one in my friend group--except maybe Maya--who has no interest at all in alcohol. I'm OK with that--I've gotten better about being around people who are drinking--but I think sometimes they aren't. I never feel pressured to drink, but I think that some of them perceive me as being uptight and self-righteous and judgmental. I'm really not, I just enjoy sobriety. The notion that they would think that I have a poor opinion of them because they drink on weekends kind of hurts me. I suppose it takes a special kind of crazy to prefer sobriety.
I went to a club for the first time this past weekend. My friends and I went to the after party for the Vietnamese Student Association's New Year thing. I'm the world's worst dancer, but I really enjoy it and I had a lot of fun. Maybe seeing me on the dance floor (however awful it may have looked) helped my friends see me as less uptight--even if I didn't join them in a drink afterward.
Dancing reminded me of Girls' State. Fire up, boogie down.
I joined a church. Weird, huh? I'm a Unitarian Universalist now, but no worries--my atheism is alive and well. I've been going every Sunday that I've been in Pittsburgh since the beginning of December, and I really enjoy it. The people are all pretty cool, and the church is perfectly OK with athesim/agnosticism/Christianity/paganism/Judaism/Buddhism/Pastafarianism/whatever other religious label you like. It's comforting to have a spiritual outlet. Over the past year I've been working on how spirituality, scientific rationalism, atheism, and humanism can all work together, and I think the UU church is a good environment for that sort of exploring.
There are finally a couple of guys around that I am vaguely interested in, but I am confident in all cases that the interest isn't mutual. Which is fine, but I wonder when I'm finally going to find some reciprocity with a guy. Sometimes, I just think that a boyfriend would be nice to have around.
I hope you enjoyed your brief foray into my existence.
(Do you think?) the
i do, world
is probably made
of roses & hello:
(of solongs and, ashes)
--E.E. Cummings
I'm driving to Oregon right after school gets out with some of my friends. It will take about two weeks round trip--and I'm pretty excited.
Over Spring Break, I am splitting my time between Ohio and Kentucky because that's where my parents are. But secretly (or not so secretly, I suppose) I want to go to Linden and just sleep for a week in Michigan. And even more than that, I want a real spring break, a vacation with my friends somewhere warm where I could get a tan and go swimming. I've never had a spring break like that, and I don't think I ever I will. It would be nice though.
This summer I am staying in Pittsburgh. Joshua and I are subletting a place together. It's decent and cheap, both of which are good. Close to campus, which will be useful for me--if all goes well, I will be working in Langley this summer.
Sometimes I feel like Joshua and I don't connect anymore, at least not as much as we used to. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I didn't really see him at all last semester and I don't see him much this semester. So I'm looking forward to living with him, because maybe that will help me feel close to him again.
I've felt a bit alienated from all of my friends lately. I think I am the last one in my friend group--except maybe Maya--who has no interest at all in alcohol. I'm OK with that--I've gotten better about being around people who are drinking--but I think sometimes they aren't. I never feel pressured to drink, but I think that some of them perceive me as being uptight and self-righteous and judgmental. I'm really not, I just enjoy sobriety. The notion that they would think that I have a poor opinion of them because they drink on weekends kind of hurts me. I suppose it takes a special kind of crazy to prefer sobriety.
I went to a club for the first time this past weekend. My friends and I went to the after party for the Vietnamese Student Association's New Year thing. I'm the world's worst dancer, but I really enjoy it and I had a lot of fun. Maybe seeing me on the dance floor (however awful it may have looked) helped my friends see me as less uptight--even if I didn't join them in a drink afterward.
Dancing reminded me of Girls' State. Fire up, boogie down.
I joined a church. Weird, huh? I'm a Unitarian Universalist now, but no worries--my atheism is alive and well. I've been going every Sunday that I've been in Pittsburgh since the beginning of December, and I really enjoy it. The people are all pretty cool, and the church is perfectly OK with athesim/agnosticism/Christianity/paganism/Judaism/Buddhism/Pastafarianism/whatever other religious label you like. It's comforting to have a spiritual outlet. Over the past year I've been working on how spirituality, scientific rationalism, atheism, and humanism can all work together, and I think the UU church is a good environment for that sort of exploring.
There are finally a couple of guys around that I am vaguely interested in, but I am confident in all cases that the interest isn't mutual. Which is fine, but I wonder when I'm finally going to find some reciprocity with a guy. Sometimes, I just think that a boyfriend would be nice to have around.
I hope you enjoyed your brief foray into my existence.
(Do you think?) the
i do, world
is probably made
of roses & hello:
(of solongs and, ashes)
--E.E. Cummings