ALMOST OVER
My boyfriend during finals.
This semester is coming to an end. I really don't know how am I gonna be standing with my GPA because this wasn't a good semester for me but I'm glad it's almost over. On Friday I present my last test which is Literature and it's the class I'm almost failing. My professor has been failing all my essays and I have a very low grade so I hope I can maintain my 70 by getting a good score on my test, hopefully. I've been wanting to do a lot of stuff: drawing, taking photos... everything I didn't feel like doing this semester. Just today I was telling a friend that it's not that I didn't have time to do stuff, I didn't have energy. The conversations I had with everyone were most of the time about work and I had little stuff to talk about. It was very difficult, I felt (still feel) isolated. I will never take on a job just to build up my resumé because it's draining and chances are I might not like it. I don't think working on a newspaper is a bad choice or bad experiences, but when you need to put priorities on other projects, it can be very demanding, especially when it's not your only responsibility. I debated a lot to make that decision you know, quitting, because it felt like another failure but in reality it was necessary, if I stayed I was going to sacrifice something I love doing which is photography, and my job was making me start to hate it.
I don't know, I just wish I had more things to share. Lately I feel like my life is very plain. I spent most of my afternoons sleeping when I wasn't working because I was really that tired. I want to go out more but I hate my city, I hate how dangerous it can get sometimes. I wish I could travel, that's something I want to do but I need money. Again, unemployed, I fear not working next semester to be honest. I got used to get my own stuff, not asking my parents for money. I got used to that power I felt because I could pay for things and that I didn't need my parents for many things anymore. But oh well. I'm hoping next year to be better. This year was weird, awkward... there were good things but for the most part, I didn't feel like having fun.