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thank you allison pinto. thank you amanda chih. thank you maricarmen paz. you ladies are the bestest. i loved it :)
la la la la la. i cannot wait til christmas. i need some winter boots man. and yeah. i love christmas. i look forward to it every year. and im always happy during this time of the year. but this year, not so much. dont get me wrong; im still in the christmas spirit, but im...i guess you can say im a mess right now.
im tired of hiding everything. i dont know how long i can keep holding it in anymore. i love the little things that can make me smile and make me feel warm inside. but eventually, i'll get cold again and the smile goes away in a matter of seconds. im sad and lost and confused and lonely and angry and stressed and numb and everything else. and i dont like it. at all. and i cant believe im actually typing everything down and im going to be posting this in a minute. i never tell my real feelings of what is going inside of me to anyone much less post what im going thru online. but like i said, im confused and i dont know what im doing anymore. and i dont know anything anymore.
la la la la la. i cannot wait til christmas. i need some winter boots man. and yeah. i love christmas. i look forward to it every year. and im always happy during this time of the year. but this year, not so much. dont get me wrong; im still in the christmas spirit, but im...i guess you can say im a mess right now.
im tired of hiding everything. i dont know how long i can keep holding it in anymore. i love the little things that can make me smile and make me feel warm inside. but eventually, i'll get cold again and the smile goes away in a matter of seconds. im sad and lost and confused and lonely and angry and stressed and numb and everything else. and i dont like it. at all. and i cant believe im actually typing everything down and im going to be posting this in a minute. i never tell my real feelings of what is going inside of me to anyone much less post what im going thru online. but like i said, im confused and i dont know what im doing anymore. and i dont know anything anymore.