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2012 was one of the low points in my recent life. I'd re-hash it, but I've probably gone over it several times with everyone I know and they'd agree that it was pretty bad. The thing I found common was that everything was a result of being inactive. Everything happened to me. This isn't to say I didn't have great experiences, but the lows trumped them and everything was a reaction to my lack of action. That doesn't make sense, but in reality, making no decision is worse than making bad decisions.
2013 is the start of something new because I've been preparing for it: I've been hounding my favorite professional people for letters of recommendation, I've been busting my ass at work, and I've started taking classes to get myself mentally ready for an academically stronger future. Everything is happening because of me.
This isn't to say I'm turning into some Don Draper-like person who cinches the world's balls and guides it by the nosering, but it does mean that I'll be in the world and not just watching it. Of course I'll spend lazy Sundays watching Cary Grant movies and drinking wine, but I'll also be busy trying to build my own future. It's something I've been figuring out for years but I know what I have to do. Everything happens because I make it happen.
I'll document this in another format soon.
2013 is the start of something new because I've been preparing for it: I've been hounding my favorite professional people for letters of recommendation, I've been busting my ass at work, and I've started taking classes to get myself mentally ready for an academically stronger future. Everything is happening because of me.
This isn't to say I'm turning into some Don Draper-like person who cinches the world's balls and guides it by the nosering, but it does mean that I'll be in the world and not just watching it. Of course I'll spend lazy Sundays watching Cary Grant movies and drinking wine, but I'll also be busy trying to build my own future. It's something I've been figuring out for years but I know what I have to do. Everything happens because I make it happen.
I'll document this in another format soon.