La da da da life goes on.

[iamjones]

Today i was sitting on the patio of my store on a smoke break and the guy sitting next to me looked at me and told me that whatever it was that was keeping me from smiling i should forget about it. And at that moment i decided that no i should not forget about it but i will choose to accept the out come, whatever it shall be. I know that life goes on, i mean it has for 20 years. Although it is not a relationship i want to let go of that does not mean that i am going to kill myself from the inside if we do have to part ways. I will choose to be happy, just as i have been since we moved to houston. I will choose to be as grown up about this as i possibly can. I have people in my life to keep me sane. [well i have jenni]She does a mighty fine job if i do say so myself. There have been many past days where i thank the stars above for placing her in my life. And each and everyday i meet new people who want to share a part in my life. Just like everything else i will accept it and move on. I see now what growing up is like. And what falling down is like. But i can only be hurt by the falling if i allow myself to be. And i can only be as happy as i will allow myself to be. And starting today things are truly going to be OKAY.

They say california is a recipe for a black hole and i say ive got my best shoes on..
Im ready to go.