Times, they are a-changin'

[iamjenae]

Life has been pretty stressful for me recently, and if any of you know me, you know this. I have been working so hard to try and keep positive, and change my outlook on things. I've been realizing a lot that life is what you make it. Things are going to be hard, things are going to be crazy and busy and stressful sometimes, but if you never feel any of those things, are you really living? "I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all." These words were on Ryan's myspace for almost a month, and each time I'd go there... they would ring in my ears and it finally got me thinking... That is one of the most true statements I've ever heard in my life. I used to be sad about things beyond my control... and even some things that were in my control but I thought I couldn't change.
As I sat on the phone last night, I realized how much I have actually changed. Ryan was talking to me and said... you never used to be this optimistic about things. That really made me realize how much I have changed. I guess I never realized how noticable it was to other people that I was down a lot. I thought I hid it well, but apparently not. I really do enjoy life a lot better now that I'm working on letting things go when they're beyond my control.I've learned to orgive... but not to forget. I've learned to give people another chance, but only with serious precautions. I am excited to see the other things that are changing in my life. I like where I'm headed... and I like my chances.