AH
I want to cry. Why is he so distant? When we're together it's like nothing can tear us apart, but then sometimes he acts like he doesn't care about me at all. I'm just so confused. I want to give up on him... I want to quit. I can't do it. I see him, smell him, feel him EVERYWHERE. Why does he have this hold on me? I wish I just didn't care. He talks to her and I can't compare to her, not that bitching does me any good I need to just fix it. Why am I so un-motivated. I should be motivated I should want to change... I do! I really really do, but why don't I get up and do something about it? I can't do this anymore. I need to just talk to him about it. But I can't because he's under so much stress right now...Being kicked out of his house, Sarah saying she doesn't want to see him again, Rach, plus him being sick and all that... I can't do that to him. I need to just be there for him when he wants to talk, but I'm so insecure that I need reassurance everyday and that sucks... Why am I so broken?