4:26PM
I don't update here almost ever.
Things have been alright lately.
Ryan and I broke up, and with every word that comes out of his mouth I am more and more grateful that I didn't take him back. Apparently tonight he wants to have an orgy. In my house. I told him no. I also told him that Shaun would say no.
He says that obviously this is not something he'd do without running it by him.
As much as I'd love a bunch of fat people and ugly people fucking in my house, I just don't think now is that time.
I set up my fish tank, but just realized that I'll need an extension cord. We have one at work, but I've also decided that I do not like the position of my tank. I'm going to have to drain it and then move it.
Shaun and my cat, Jack passed away yesterday. We either left Shaun's bedroom door open, or didn't close it enough, and he got out and Hannah killed him. He died quickly from internal injuries most likely. There was no bleeding from him, but on his side, Hannah's face and ears have been ripped to shreds. Shaun buried him last night. He's feeling very guilty, but it's not his fault. Accidents happen. It's hard to tell someone that it will be ok, and that accidents happen when they feel so guilty. There's not really anything that you can say to make them feel better. My mom ran over Coal a few weeks ago and she died. My mom felt really bad. And a couple years ago, I left a rat in my retic's cage and for two hours it ate my snake, who was still alive when I found her two hours later. I had to put her down myself.
But shit happens, and you learn from it, and it sucks that we have to learn through Coal or Jack's or Maddie's deaths, but you can't change it. Hannah doesn't realize what she did wrong. She does know now that she did do something wrong, but I honestly don't think she knows exactly what it is. But she's definitely feeling uncomfortable for the time being. I'm trying to be nice to her so that she knows it's not her fault, but that we are angry and a loot of it will be taken out on her. Not physically obviously. But it's weird to be around her now.
Hopefully she heals without a lot of scarring.
Stan is doing well. he hangs in his cage or with me. I need to get him a better cage cause the one he is in is falling apart. I might forgo a bed and buy a new cage for him. Have to see how much they cost.
recently, I swam with beluga whales. Ryan got it for my birthday. It's an "interactive program" they have with whales or sea lions. So it was pretty awesome. The water was about fifty degrees, so that was cold. You don't even notice it though cause you are swimming with whales. I got to do hand signals, and feed them, and provide them with positive reinforcement. the trainer who was with us was really cool. It's definitely something I want to do again, and I think that it is something that Shaun would also really like.
After we did that, we went to the Riverwalk which is famous in San Antonio. It was cute, but not really anything that I would make a big deal over. We were gonna go to a restaurant called Dick's where the waiters are assholes. Apparently that means that your meal is going to be over fourteen dollars. We left and went to Joe's Crab Shack next door. I got chicken fingers for half of what they were at Dick's.
Then we drove home.
Shaun got me a Sea Shepherd tattoo for my birthday. It's on the back of my calf. It looks really good, but apparently we paid far too much for it. i met a guy named Jesse the next day who bought some corals from us, nad he was like, "uh, I could've done that for fifty bucks." So there's that. Regardless, it is an awesome tattoo. It makes me want to wear shorts more often. haha.
Unfortunately I have to shave my legs more often too...
I put Jack in the freezer last night before we buried him. Ryan complained about it. Cause Jack was on "his" food. It appears that it didn't bother him enough to eat the food.
i keep getting sidetracked in this entry.
I think I am going to go for now.
Things have been alright lately.
Ryan and I broke up, and with every word that comes out of his mouth I am more and more grateful that I didn't take him back. Apparently tonight he wants to have an orgy. In my house. I told him no. I also told him that Shaun would say no.
He says that obviously this is not something he'd do without running it by him.
As much as I'd love a bunch of fat people and ugly people fucking in my house, I just don't think now is that time.
I set up my fish tank, but just realized that I'll need an extension cord. We have one at work, but I've also decided that I do not like the position of my tank. I'm going to have to drain it and then move it.
Shaun and my cat, Jack passed away yesterday. We either left Shaun's bedroom door open, or didn't close it enough, and he got out and Hannah killed him. He died quickly from internal injuries most likely. There was no bleeding from him, but on his side, Hannah's face and ears have been ripped to shreds. Shaun buried him last night. He's feeling very guilty, but it's not his fault. Accidents happen. It's hard to tell someone that it will be ok, and that accidents happen when they feel so guilty. There's not really anything that you can say to make them feel better. My mom ran over Coal a few weeks ago and she died. My mom felt really bad. And a couple years ago, I left a rat in my retic's cage and for two hours it ate my snake, who was still alive when I found her two hours later. I had to put her down myself.
But shit happens, and you learn from it, and it sucks that we have to learn through Coal or Jack's or Maddie's deaths, but you can't change it. Hannah doesn't realize what she did wrong. She does know now that she did do something wrong, but I honestly don't think she knows exactly what it is. But she's definitely feeling uncomfortable for the time being. I'm trying to be nice to her so that she knows it's not her fault, but that we are angry and a loot of it will be taken out on her. Not physically obviously. But it's weird to be around her now.
Hopefully she heals without a lot of scarring.
Stan is doing well. he hangs in his cage or with me. I need to get him a better cage cause the one he is in is falling apart. I might forgo a bed and buy a new cage for him. Have to see how much they cost.
recently, I swam with beluga whales. Ryan got it for my birthday. It's an "interactive program" they have with whales or sea lions. So it was pretty awesome. The water was about fifty degrees, so that was cold. You don't even notice it though cause you are swimming with whales. I got to do hand signals, and feed them, and provide them with positive reinforcement. the trainer who was with us was really cool. It's definitely something I want to do again, and I think that it is something that Shaun would also really like.
After we did that, we went to the Riverwalk which is famous in San Antonio. It was cute, but not really anything that I would make a big deal over. We were gonna go to a restaurant called Dick's where the waiters are assholes. Apparently that means that your meal is going to be over fourteen dollars. We left and went to Joe's Crab Shack next door. I got chicken fingers for half of what they were at Dick's.
Then we drove home.
Shaun got me a Sea Shepherd tattoo for my birthday. It's on the back of my calf. It looks really good, but apparently we paid far too much for it. i met a guy named Jesse the next day who bought some corals from us, nad he was like, "uh, I could've done that for fifty bucks." So there's that. Regardless, it is an awesome tattoo. It makes me want to wear shorts more often. haha.
Unfortunately I have to shave my legs more often too...
I put Jack in the freezer last night before we buried him. Ryan complained about it. Cause Jack was on "his" food. It appears that it didn't bother him enough to eat the food.
i keep getting sidetracked in this entry.
I think I am going to go for now.