ipods suck
I hate ipods. Cell phones too. They are expensive and they seem necessary, but they are built to last only a little while. Maybe that's a metaphor, maybe I'm just tired of writing a paper and I'm over analyzing. My point is that both of my ipods are on the fritz and I'm going mad without my music. I didn't realize I had become so dependent on my playlists, but apparently I have. I really hate feeling so dependent on something or someone.
The day of St. Valentine is quickly approaching and it's got me thinking (something we all know is a bad idea). Have you ever wanted something, then you got it, but you realized later that maybe it's not all you thought it would be? My first real, adult relationship type thing seems to have turned out that way. Maybe it's not the relationship itself, but the person the relationship is with. I really want to like him- mostly bc he seems to like me so much and he's such a nice guy- but I can't force myself to. Trust me, I've tried. I feel like we're at a point where I should like him more than I do, but I don't. If anything I might actually like him less because I've removed the rose colored glasses that seem to make everything so grand. This is going to be my first Valentine's day with a legitimate valentine, and I'm not looking forward to it because it feels more like an obligation to spend the day with him than a privelage. Spending time with someone should not feel like a job.
It's just funny how you spend so much time wanting something and when you finally get it, sometimes it's not at all what you imagined. It's my own fault because I romanticize everything too much, but live and learn I guess. Maybe I just need to have lower expectations of people. Stop being so damn picky.