what the hell is beautiful?
i have been having to do all this research on images and information on female beauty standards, what society considers to be beautiful, and the effects of the beauty industry on women... and it's like, well how do i fit in to all of this? am i beautiful like society says i should be? how can i be considered a beautiful, sexy woman when i look nothing like any of the women i see in my searches? idk, i know that i am wonderful and i am sexy and i think that i am beautiful, but really, i don't know how to feel about the concept of beauty in any sense. i know this won't make sense as it doesn't really make sense to me. but it's hard not to question one's body type, personality, clothing style, makeup, hair color/length, and anything else that can be lumped into the list of things that make a woman "beautiful" to the general public. i need something to bring my head down from the clouds and keep me grounded in the reality where not every woman is capable of being 6 feet tall and 100 lbs with C cup breasts. i hate when i question my worth or beauty or sexual appeal but i think it's hard not to when being barraged with images of "perfection." i hate my classes right now.