Fuck you I have Heart
These Past few days I have Started to grow tired of doing the same thing with the same people...all they do is smoke weed and get drunk while i sit thier..it used to be fun to make fun of them. Now its just sad. I relized this tonight We were at a park and they were all smoking while i sat on a park bench by myself. Smoking themselves stupid. It is sad to see people who were once better than that lowering thier lives to this pathetic excuse for something to do.You are prolly thinking why don't you just join them. and i say that would be to easy why the fuck would I lose what i know is in my heart and what is the right choice for me. I guess it is safe to say i am just sad..maybe even jealous they choose drugs or alcohol or both over spending time with me sober talking laughing like we used to. I have so much fucking heart for what i beilieve in and i don't give a fuck if you find that cocky sounding or not. FUCK YOU if you think I am full of myself. I think i just need to get away for a weekend or something and be with new people differant people.
It sucks because it seems like all the people are far away and few between. It sucks because i just got fired so i have the time to do it. Just not the financial aid to get thier. I am tired of stealing to eat, Tired of stealing to have clean clothes, tired of begging for people to give me money or food or both. It makes me feel like shit. I hate not having a job. I feel worthless not doing anything with my time. I am trying to find a new job. But none have called me back yet.
I want a girl....Not just any girl but that girl..I don't want a girl that has to change to impress me, I don't want a girl who is needy, I want a girl who is chill as fuck who is down to hang out or cuddle doesnt matter. I don't want a whore, I don't want someone who smokes or drinks, does not mean you have to be edge but just don't need that shit. what else? I wan't a girl who has as much if not more heart for the things she believes in as me. Not a fake ass slut who hides behind her own insecurities. I want a girl who is comfortable enough to walk outside with out make-up. Some People are gonna call me picky but you are god damn right. I will not compromise my convictions on any thing.
I guess after writing this I should just pack up move to Utah and become a mormon haha. Not a bad idea I guess!
It sucks because it seems like all the people are far away and few between. It sucks because i just got fired so i have the time to do it. Just not the financial aid to get thier. I am tired of stealing to eat, Tired of stealing to have clean clothes, tired of begging for people to give me money or food or both. It makes me feel like shit. I hate not having a job. I feel worthless not doing anything with my time. I am trying to find a new job. But none have called me back yet.
I want a girl....Not just any girl but that girl..I don't want a girl that has to change to impress me, I don't want a girl who is needy, I want a girl who is chill as fuck who is down to hang out or cuddle doesnt matter. I don't want a whore, I don't want someone who smokes or drinks, does not mean you have to be edge but just don't need that shit. what else? I wan't a girl who has as much if not more heart for the things she believes in as me. Not a fake ass slut who hides behind her own insecurities. I want a girl who is comfortable enough to walk outside with out make-up. Some People are gonna call me picky but you are god damn right. I will not compromise my convictions on any thing.
I guess after writing this I should just pack up move to Utah and become a mormon haha. Not a bad idea I guess!