College and life
DAMN SCHOOL AND LIFE! I HATE IT! It's only going to get worse, college search in the summer!?! I don't want to go to college, I want to stay in high school forever! I love my friends, I love what I'm learning, I love the activities and sports I participate in, I LOVE Rancocas Valley. I just love everything about high school and RV except of course, the people who are considered partiers, druggies, the anti-social people, people like that. As you can see, I'm not the kid who would go out and party hard meaning drinking and smoking because I don't do either and I won't!
The paragraph above was an entry a few months back (maybe May). My thoughts have changed since then. I want to go to college, I don't want to be here anymore. Its absolutely ridiculous here! Everyone is pety, everyone is envious, and everyone are assholes. I don't want to be surround by the immaturity anymore - none of it. Recently, I have been looking back at photographs of myself from the past as well as school projects. I came across one project from EMS, Eastampton Middle School for people who are not from E-Town. It entails writing a paragraph on what your high school life will be like. When I read, I almost cried - everything that I wanted to do, I have accomplished within three years (freshman thru junior year). That is so amazing!
The thing that bothers me now is the lack of a relationship. The "past-so called" one didn't work out too well. Frankly, I'm glad. But I'm not happy at the fact that she still thinks I that I care about her as much as I did before. I don't. Honestly, I don't care how many or whom you have/had sex with. It doesn't matter to me. I have been feeling lonely lately and times a ticking - a few months until graduation, if I do find someone from RV. Eh...doubtful as that sounds, I don't even know who I'm going with to prom. I don't know. People have already asked others and I'm just here, waiting and searching...til death.
Red and White Night, please come faster. I need you so much. I want to see my Candice, Mike, Luke, Meg, and Kelly on an everyday basis again. I need them. My captain family are the only people who can make my life a little much better then it is. April 7th, you're coming soon. Applications should be coming out very soon and I CAN'T wait! I love you Red Team.