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Finally updating this thing
a whole semester of hiatus haha
month off from mville!
i really needed it
let me fill everyone in on the things ive been doing/not doing since I've started college:
-met a lot of people
-learned a lot of things in terms of classes and people
-learned to make the best of things
RIght before I went to college I had promised myself that I wouldn't try to make friends or even START liking a boy as more than a friend. I think I was terrified of being rejected by everyone when I went there. I was scared beyond belief.
When I got there I was taken out of that shell by meeting everyone and finding that not everyone is so bad. Hey, I even started liking a boy. My first college fling?--Zephan
It wasn't anything big. It ended abruptly because we both kind of realized we didn't really like each other in that way. We didn't talk for a while, but later we became friends like before. He was kicked out not too long ago for having weed. That was really disappointing to hear.
The friends I made. I made a lot of different kinds. My roommate is one of my friends. I also have a boy named Elliot from Long Island is one of my really good friends and Stephanie from upstate new york. We worked together in the bookstore during the first two weeks. A lot of times Elliot, Kylie(roommate), Armand, and me will hang out. The group I hang out with changes often. I like that in a way because it's always interesting. In the beginning of the year it was Rachel, Kylie, and me. Later it was Zephan, Kylie, Rachel, and Me and then it switched to Zephan, Kylie and me. I sometimes do not get along with Kylie so I at times hang out with Stephanie and Elliot with a bunch of others. Elliot is a cool kid. He allowed me to meet a lot of new different people. I am so shy that I have an intensely hard time at making friends, so he was able to open that door for me.
When Kylie and I weren't getting along so well around October I went to bake cookies with Stephanie, Steph's ex roommate, and Elliot and there we met Sage.
Great Sage. I wish I could still say that and mean it or I wish I could believe I didn't mean it. If you couldn't guess we had a thing. I really started to like him, but it ended. I got the whole.... "I really like you tiffany I really do but i don't know what I want out of the relationship. I'll figure it out after break and give you an answer."
I'm obviously still hurting from this for some reason. I don't know why I invested so much hope into that particular guy. He's just like anyone else. But for some reason I just really miss him or I wish I stood up for myself. I can't really understand which it is. I wish I told him, "no way sage. I'm not waiting for you, who do you think i am??"
A lot of my friends say his statement means he wants to play the field and I'm sure they are right. It gets me so angry that I knew that fact and still didn't just tell him forget it.
I have no idea why I took this so hard. It makes me want to go back to what I had promised myself to do. I want to just forget socializing and focusing completely on school.
I love school here.
Of course I do get stresssed, but only with the writing. I used to be considered such a great writer, but now it's such a battle for me to write a good paper in their eyes. I get such mediocre grades like B-'s and C's. I am slowly learning though.
I also love communications and psychology.!!
I found out I hate philosophy and am never taking it again.
I also feel confused on which should be my major communications or psychology.
I also found out I am actually really good at spanish and love it with a passion.
If anyone has any college writing tips
PLEASE SHARE!
a whole semester of hiatus haha
month off from mville!
i really needed it
let me fill everyone in on the things ive been doing/not doing since I've started college:
-met a lot of people
-learned a lot of things in terms of classes and people
-learned to make the best of things
RIght before I went to college I had promised myself that I wouldn't try to make friends or even START liking a boy as more than a friend. I think I was terrified of being rejected by everyone when I went there. I was scared beyond belief.
When I got there I was taken out of that shell by meeting everyone and finding that not everyone is so bad. Hey, I even started liking a boy. My first college fling?--Zephan
It wasn't anything big. It ended abruptly because we both kind of realized we didn't really like each other in that way. We didn't talk for a while, but later we became friends like before. He was kicked out not too long ago for having weed. That was really disappointing to hear.
The friends I made. I made a lot of different kinds. My roommate is one of my friends. I also have a boy named Elliot from Long Island is one of my really good friends and Stephanie from upstate new york. We worked together in the bookstore during the first two weeks. A lot of times Elliot, Kylie(roommate), Armand, and me will hang out. The group I hang out with changes often. I like that in a way because it's always interesting. In the beginning of the year it was Rachel, Kylie, and me. Later it was Zephan, Kylie, Rachel, and Me and then it switched to Zephan, Kylie and me. I sometimes do not get along with Kylie so I at times hang out with Stephanie and Elliot with a bunch of others. Elliot is a cool kid. He allowed me to meet a lot of new different people. I am so shy that I have an intensely hard time at making friends, so he was able to open that door for me.
When Kylie and I weren't getting along so well around October I went to bake cookies with Stephanie, Steph's ex roommate, and Elliot and there we met Sage.
Great Sage. I wish I could still say that and mean it or I wish I could believe I didn't mean it. If you couldn't guess we had a thing. I really started to like him, but it ended. I got the whole.... "I really like you tiffany I really do but i don't know what I want out of the relationship. I'll figure it out after break and give you an answer."
I'm obviously still hurting from this for some reason. I don't know why I invested so much hope into that particular guy. He's just like anyone else. But for some reason I just really miss him or I wish I stood up for myself. I can't really understand which it is. I wish I told him, "no way sage. I'm not waiting for you, who do you think i am??"
A lot of my friends say his statement means he wants to play the field and I'm sure they are right. It gets me so angry that I knew that fact and still didn't just tell him forget it.
I have no idea why I took this so hard. It makes me want to go back to what I had promised myself to do. I want to just forget socializing and focusing completely on school.
I love school here.
Of course I do get stresssed, but only with the writing. I used to be considered such a great writer, but now it's such a battle for me to write a good paper in their eyes. I get such mediocre grades like B-'s and C's. I am slowly learning though.
I also love communications and psychology.!!
I found out I hate philosophy and am never taking it again.
I also feel confused on which should be my major communications or psychology.
I also found out I am actually really good at spanish and love it with a passion.
If anyone has any college writing tips
PLEASE SHARE!