dear anybody who cares
I'm stinkin drunk and all I want is a last fucking shift. I've worked for you for 6 months. And regardless of how much you think I care, I divide my life segments into where I work and where I reside. And the past 6 months of my life have meant SO FUCKING MUCH to me. They have helped me to regain a sense of independence and to find myself again. Lazymoon has done so much more for me than it will ever know. I'm crushed that the person I love/ somebody doesnt realize that I just want to work for just 6 hours more to put in my final goodbyes.
Its like the last day of highschool, when I stood in the math building hallway pretending to be on bathroom break, and I looked out the window and thought to myself "wow, things are going to change from this moment on"
I just want that kind of clarity. I want the last shift for myself, so I can think in my sick fucked up head that this phase of my life is over, and a new one is coming.
I hatttttte change. hate it. more than anything. I moved from one room in my house to the room next door and it took me a few weeks to get over the change. Im still not fully over it. I feel like this change will have an effect on other things in my life and it will therefore change other good things as well. its my superstition. so in the midst of my job change, i just want my own clear and defining moment to think to myself thatt things will be different after this shift, so i can pick up and move on with my life.
im going to miss lazymoon a lot. and so many people dont know that, even my own boyfriend. and that makes me deeply sad.
Its like the last day of highschool, when I stood in the math building hallway pretending to be on bathroom break, and I looked out the window and thought to myself "wow, things are going to change from this moment on"
I just want that kind of clarity. I want the last shift for myself, so I can think in my sick fucked up head that this phase of my life is over, and a new one is coming.
I hatttttte change. hate it. more than anything. I moved from one room in my house to the room next door and it took me a few weeks to get over the change. Im still not fully over it. I feel like this change will have an effect on other things in my life and it will therefore change other good things as well. its my superstition. so in the midst of my job change, i just want my own clear and defining moment to think to myself thatt things will be different after this shift, so i can pick up and move on with my life.
im going to miss lazymoon a lot. and so many people dont know that, even my own boyfriend. and that makes me deeply sad.