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[iamclarkkent]

So here i am with only 8 more days left at NYU. I am definitely not doubting my decision to leave, because I know I will love UCF and be in an awesome living situation and be pursuing what i love to do. It's just sort of weird to know that they will all be coming back again and i wont. i cried yesterday for the first time in a while. i knew i was goingto, because i could just feel it in my chest while i was in the elevator, with hallelujiah on my ipod. i just cant imagine hugging hunt and larkin goodbye and watching them lock up their room for the last time any of us will go in it, and then watch them walk out of my life. it's funny though, because they are really the only ones i am sad to leave. nobody else really cares anyway. i won't really miss anything at all, when i really step back and think about it. i usually dread coming back here after breaks. im actually really glad i am not coming back, and i can just chill out and make life easy on myself for the first time in my entire life. i think this is actually the first time EVER that i am doing what i want to do regardless of what anyone thinks about my decision or how people view me. i am proud of myself for getting enough guts to say I DONT LIKE IT HERE instead of feeding everyone lies about how much i love it. it will just be weird to never come in this room, the place i have lived for the past yr, and it will be weird that i wont see half of my hallway ever again, and it will be weird to not be able to run down the hall and snuggle with hunt and larkin, or heear marshals HEYYS at least twice a day, or tuesday morning fire alarms, or running on the treadmill downstairs, or living on university and 8th st. hm. but im growing accustomed to change, and at least i have an interesting story to tell my kids.
au revoir