bitch bitch bitch
I actually have a lot to say it's been awhile........ first off what is life but a game??????? It's a game you know why... because you can make mistakes and you can't fix them and you can make your choices right but it doesn't always make them good choices..... let's start with this love sucks it does there is nothing good about it...... it feels good for seconds, days, hours, and it hurts for years...... or possibly forever!!!!! Marriage hahahahahaaaaaa............. what is that a promise to try what???? Try to stay together??? hell isn't that any relationship even friendship??????? What but when you take that step they may get a better deal out of the end or even loose more?? Why doesn't this make sense?????? Oh yeah and also when you get married for the wrong decisions yah like that's gonna last that's like a long term head ache!!!!!!! Maybe I just don't want him too and why because really I don't know it all I don't know the feelings the relationship the stability...... hell I know nothing but I do know him!!!! I know him well I know his fears his feelings I sometimes know his thoughts.... better them him??? well no.... how could I?..... I know this though he thinks often what I am doing what if what how what did I do ...... why didn't it........ and if he does now..... after all it's been what almost 2 years??????!!!!!!!! What's that say it doesn't say I need to move on twice as much......... it's saying slow down????!!!!!! He wants kids it's a LARGE issue with him!!!!!!!! He loves them she can't have them what's that say!!!!!!!!!!! How about negitive hell no...... I don't know don't want to curse them but helllllllloooo... GOOD LUCK!!!......... anyways... so I am getting to be a pretty good shot in pool that is... but still I think it's a 50 50 shot~~~!!! don't care what anyone else says.... I am single well of course I am...... look at me fun loving care free cute available, lazy immature obnoxious loud..... who wouldn't want me~~~~~!!!!!!!...... haha I am mee that's who I'll always be............. Love me, hate me, just don't irratate me....................... I'm tierd