stillllllllllllllllllllll here
I awoke again today with a hang over... so I left Lisa's and came home and went back to bed.... went up to buckeye lake for a while yesterday I guess that's interesting..... so my life.. I am still single sorta single hahahaha
There's guys who's interested i just don't think I am ready for a complete comittment... well... hummmmmmmm..... Let's see so andy, eric, and jeff are infatuated with me I like adam...hahahaa..... wes is back in town and of course that fucks me up...... he was and remains the one true love of my life although now more and more find him different.... he'll come back to find me gone sometime..... and realize I was the closet thing to perfection he can or could ever find I lied once who cares!!!!!!!!!!! everybody does.... i am truly sorry though.. that's all I can be...... he had enough nerve to say the only reason I wanted to see him is for a lay..... hahahahahahaaaaa okay he was good but come on!!!!!!!!!!! I could ummmm...... get laid anytime with anyone and I wouldn't fucking go looking for one!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a vibrator and it treats me great.... hahahaaaa....... so let's mention mike.... i will always love and miss him...... he's like a big brother.. I relied on him and opened up to him... I loved him but I haven't been in love with him.... think that kinda ended the relatoinship..... I could have stayed with him forever and been content but not happy..... but I'm not happy now either of content so that sucks... makes me miss him even more he spoiled the shit out of me too.... don't think he'll ever meet anyone like me either... think he'll be stuck with his flavour of the week.. an old lady!!! okay not so much as old old but she's definitly in her mid 30's that's disguisting@!!!!! and we use to make fun of her all the time him too!!!! she's divorced and has like a 12 year old.... mike isn't interested in sex ever!!!! and definitly didn't ever want or need any kids!!!! but hey here's to ya....... good luck.... or better luck... so anyways back to me liking adam..... hmmmmmmm.... I like him he's everything I look for which is just being as different and as confusing as possible..... not real hard I guess and of course he's not infatuated with me which I find repulsive.... that's why I'm not with eric, jeff, or andy.... but usually I do find time to drink with them atleast once a week... haahhaa and for the exception of andy do call them back once a week.. ahahahaaa andy well I find no need to return his calls... i know he'll be up my ass on sunday.... jeff calls and cries to me or my answering machine daily about not calling him back... and eric okay he's the funniest because he just laughs about me never calling back and don't care calls until I answer..... and has the majic words want to drink beer.. hahahahaaaaaaa....... which is good...... jeff complains I never see him sober or in the day light..... hahahaa...... andy complains I stand him up... eric still is mad I won't go on one date with him he won on a pool game which the odds were if he wins I have to go on a date with him if I win I have to go on a date with him...... and still no date with him..... dates our over rated I have no time between work sleep susie and bars no time at all... i shoot pool on monday and wednesdays to drink beer and bowling on tuesday to drink beer and thurs I have to go to sleepys to see adam and drink beer and friday and saturday duh it's the weekend I have to drink because that's what you do and sunday I usually work both places so no beer!!!! I remember wes saying blah blah blah something about not drinking beer aalll the time and doing something with someone's life don't quite remember I think I was drunk at the time....???? well when the right guy does find me or has me back or something like that i'll stop drinking it's not important it's something to pass the time away while I'm waiting on him....... any idea's where to meet him???? well not really anything great to say......... nothing to lie about and no one to lie with ...... fuck it I'm going to bed!!!!!!!!!!!
There's guys who's interested i just don't think I am ready for a complete comittment... well... hummmmmmmm..... Let's see so andy, eric, and jeff are infatuated with me I like adam...hahahaa..... wes is back in town and of course that fucks me up...... he was and remains the one true love of my life although now more and more find him different.... he'll come back to find me gone sometime..... and realize I was the closet thing to perfection he can or could ever find I lied once who cares!!!!!!!!!!! everybody does.... i am truly sorry though.. that's all I can be...... he had enough nerve to say the only reason I wanted to see him is for a lay..... hahahahahahaaaaa okay he was good but come on!!!!!!!!!!! I could ummmm...... get laid anytime with anyone and I wouldn't fucking go looking for one!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a vibrator and it treats me great.... hahahaaaa....... so let's mention mike.... i will always love and miss him...... he's like a big brother.. I relied on him and opened up to him... I loved him but I haven't been in love with him.... think that kinda ended the relatoinship..... I could have stayed with him forever and been content but not happy..... but I'm not happy now either of content so that sucks... makes me miss him even more he spoiled the shit out of me too.... don't think he'll ever meet anyone like me either... think he'll be stuck with his flavour of the week.. an old lady!!! okay not so much as old old but she's definitly in her mid 30's that's disguisting@!!!!! and we use to make fun of her all the time him too!!!! she's divorced and has like a 12 year old.... mike isn't interested in sex ever!!!! and definitly didn't ever want or need any kids!!!! but hey here's to ya....... good luck.... or better luck... so anyways back to me liking adam..... hmmmmmmm.... I like him he's everything I look for which is just being as different and as confusing as possible..... not real hard I guess and of course he's not infatuated with me which I find repulsive.... that's why I'm not with eric, jeff, or andy.... but usually I do find time to drink with them atleast once a week... haahhaa and for the exception of andy do call them back once a week.. ahahahaaa andy well I find no need to return his calls... i know he'll be up my ass on sunday.... jeff calls and cries to me or my answering machine daily about not calling him back... and eric okay he's the funniest because he just laughs about me never calling back and don't care calls until I answer..... and has the majic words want to drink beer.. hahahahaaaaaaa....... which is good...... jeff complains I never see him sober or in the day light..... hahahaa...... andy complains I stand him up... eric still is mad I won't go on one date with him he won on a pool game which the odds were if he wins I have to go on a date with him if I win I have to go on a date with him...... and still no date with him..... dates our over rated I have no time between work sleep susie and bars no time at all... i shoot pool on monday and wednesdays to drink beer and bowling on tuesday to drink beer and thurs I have to go to sleepys to see adam and drink beer and friday and saturday duh it's the weekend I have to drink because that's what you do and sunday I usually work both places so no beer!!!! I remember wes saying blah blah blah something about not drinking beer aalll the time and doing something with someone's life don't quite remember I think I was drunk at the time....???? well when the right guy does find me or has me back or something like that i'll stop drinking it's not important it's something to pass the time away while I'm waiting on him....... any idea's where to meet him???? well not really anything great to say......... nothing to lie about and no one to lie with ...... fuck it I'm going to bed!!!!!!!!!!!