Update
Just an update on my life since I haven't posted in a minute.
Classes are going well though I haven't gotten my last book I needed. I missed a homework assignment in International Econ because I didn't get it, but I think I'll be fine since father transfered some money into my bank account and I get paid tomorrow.
The RA thing is going well I guess, nothing really important to talk about other than some of the staff is getting on my nerves because the are so annoying.
The people here are great, I have so many new friends like Brock and Melissa. I love them to death. Brock is dating Meghan, or at least they are getting close and that makes me happy because Brock is a good guy and Meghan deserves someone like him. Though there have been some incidences, but it all worked out in the end. Melissa is going to the airport to pick up her friend who flew in from Florida. He is HOT and I hope they hit it off. She says she likes him and he might like her so we'll see. Yay for Mel though.
Me, well nothing to report other than the talk I just had with Brent, but nothing will come of that because we don't even know each other at all. Its just good to have a talk with someone in which there is a slight possibility. I've only been talking with Brock, and though he does hit on me and flirt a lot, I know that nothing would ever happen, he is just that type of guy that likes to flirt with the gay guy to get him horny as a joke, but I'm fine with that because he is fine as shit.
Roommates are going well. Christian is great and Jeffrey (mclovin) is funny as shit.
My SI sessions have been good, had 3 people show up on Wednesday and today, and we had a good review.
All together things are going right, but that is just the events that are good. Me myself, like how I feel about my life at the moment, not sure. There are just so many things going on I forget to sit back and think about what is best for me. What I really want right now. There is the RA and SI thing that is making me focus and not slack off, and while that is good, at the same time I don't want to be stuck in my room all day doing homework and keeping the peace. I am still just a teenager (though only until May). I haven't been in the real world in a while, stuck on the campus. I want to stretch my legs and do something. I don't know what, but something other than school.
As for me emotionally, that is a different story. I really don't know how I feel about a lot of things. There are issues with my mother. I haven't talked to her in a while, but she doesn't make the effort either. I know she is in a really bad position right now, but I just can't take it upon myself right now to deal with it. I love her i guess, but I can't forgive just like that. I had a bad life, but I got out of it and look where I am. I want to do something, but with all that is going on I don't have the means or time. I don't even know if she would use me just like she used my sister for money. I just don't know right now.
Love...well...I guess that department has also been put on hold for now. I really want to find someone to love, but once again with everything going on right now I don't even think I could do it. I wouldn't even have time to do anything with them, let alone let feelings develop. Don't get me wrong, there are some amazingly attractive guys here, but my options are really limited. The gay populations here is either out of my league, taken, or stalker weird. I guess thats a good thing though because it would just be a distraction.
On some real shit though, don't worry about me. I'm just sounding depressed now because there is so much going on I don't have time to think. I'm going to bed early and I'm going to have a good day tomorrow hopefully.
Classes are going well though I haven't gotten my last book I needed. I missed a homework assignment in International Econ because I didn't get it, but I think I'll be fine since father transfered some money into my bank account and I get paid tomorrow.
The RA thing is going well I guess, nothing really important to talk about other than some of the staff is getting on my nerves because the are so annoying.
The people here are great, I have so many new friends like Brock and Melissa. I love them to death. Brock is dating Meghan, or at least they are getting close and that makes me happy because Brock is a good guy and Meghan deserves someone like him. Though there have been some incidences, but it all worked out in the end. Melissa is going to the airport to pick up her friend who flew in from Florida. He is HOT and I hope they hit it off. She says she likes him and he might like her so we'll see. Yay for Mel though.
Me, well nothing to report other than the talk I just had with Brent, but nothing will come of that because we don't even know each other at all. Its just good to have a talk with someone in which there is a slight possibility. I've only been talking with Brock, and though he does hit on me and flirt a lot, I know that nothing would ever happen, he is just that type of guy that likes to flirt with the gay guy to get him horny as a joke, but I'm fine with that because he is fine as shit.
Roommates are going well. Christian is great and Jeffrey (mclovin) is funny as shit.
My SI sessions have been good, had 3 people show up on Wednesday and today, and we had a good review.
All together things are going right, but that is just the events that are good. Me myself, like how I feel about my life at the moment, not sure. There are just so many things going on I forget to sit back and think about what is best for me. What I really want right now. There is the RA and SI thing that is making me focus and not slack off, and while that is good, at the same time I don't want to be stuck in my room all day doing homework and keeping the peace. I am still just a teenager (though only until May). I haven't been in the real world in a while, stuck on the campus. I want to stretch my legs and do something. I don't know what, but something other than school.
As for me emotionally, that is a different story. I really don't know how I feel about a lot of things. There are issues with my mother. I haven't talked to her in a while, but she doesn't make the effort either. I know she is in a really bad position right now, but I just can't take it upon myself right now to deal with it. I love her i guess, but I can't forgive just like that. I had a bad life, but I got out of it and look where I am. I want to do something, but with all that is going on I don't have the means or time. I don't even know if she would use me just like she used my sister for money. I just don't know right now.
Love...well...I guess that department has also been put on hold for now. I really want to find someone to love, but once again with everything going on right now I don't even think I could do it. I wouldn't even have time to do anything with them, let alone let feelings develop. Don't get me wrong, there are some amazingly attractive guys here, but my options are really limited. The gay populations here is either out of my league, taken, or stalker weird. I guess thats a good thing though because it would just be a distraction.
On some real shit though, don't worry about me. I'm just sounding depressed now because there is so much going on I don't have time to think. I'm going to bed early and I'm going to have a good day tomorrow hopefully.