waiting
this is such bs
wtf am i home for
i could be anywhere in the world
doing anything in the world
and yet i'm here
still sittin
doin nothin
i hate how ppl ignore me
or like treat me as less then a person
like on friday..i asked two different girls wat was wrong
cuz they looked like they were about to cry
there like
i'm ok
nothin
then i look at them in like 4 minutes
and their crying
and i'm like...why didnt they want to tell me
maybe it's selfish of me
but wat made them not tell me
ya i thought that was retarded
wat they thought i wouldn't be able to help?
ya
i'm totaly gonna start alienating my self at school
cuz theres no point in becomin "Friends" with these ppl
if they don't trust me and i don't trust them
a really gay thing is
like..i guess my "Friends" treat me like a little brother and stuff
since i'm yougner, and annoyin like one...so they like poke fun at me
and like say go away
and i know when they mean it and when they don't
but then other ppl
see them doin that
and they think they can too
but i'm like hell naw
i'm not a fuckin punchin bag
cuz a friend is suppose to be there to help u out and stuff right?
it's like everytime i try to put myself o ut there for someone
they dont need my help
ya...today our toilet was like leaking
ya..i'm gonna p ut that into one of my scripts
and my dad brought me the rong food from in and out
imma put that in one of my scripts too
sometimes i wonder if it's luck and coincidents workin in my life
or God
i assume it's God
cuz everything is a creatino of God
it seems i'm always waitin for somethin to be different
always waitin for something to happen
that will make everything betta
but it never happens
and i'm still left alone
unchanged
that's my biggest fault
waiting
theres nothing to wait for
except for like goin to heavan
u have no other reason to wait for anything
do u?
i'm waiting for mission viejo high school though
i think everythings gonna be cool
cuz i'm startin anew
barely anyone has any recollection of me
and that gives me the ability to create there image of me
i just hope i dont fuck it up
waiting
waiting for u to take me home
waiting for u lead me somewhere
i'm gonna start singin at choir
cuz like it's retarded for me not to sing if i think i have a good voice
ya know
like i'll never know if it's really good unless i start lettin ppl listen to that
i think that's why one of the reasons i want a guitar
cuz like if i get one
i'll be able to see if i can actually write
and be a musicion
come
just as you are to worship
come just as you are
wtf am i home for
i could be anywhere in the world
doing anything in the world
and yet i'm here
still sittin
doin nothin
i hate how ppl ignore me
or like treat me as less then a person
like on friday..i asked two different girls wat was wrong
cuz they looked like they were about to cry
there like
i'm ok
nothin
then i look at them in like 4 minutes
and their crying
and i'm like...why didnt they want to tell me
maybe it's selfish of me
but wat made them not tell me
ya i thought that was retarded
wat they thought i wouldn't be able to help?
ya
i'm totaly gonna start alienating my self at school
cuz theres no point in becomin "Friends" with these ppl
if they don't trust me and i don't trust them
a really gay thing is
like..i guess my "Friends" treat me like a little brother and stuff
since i'm yougner, and annoyin like one...so they like poke fun at me
and like say go away
and i know when they mean it and when they don't
but then other ppl
see them doin that
and they think they can too
but i'm like hell naw
i'm not a fuckin punchin bag
cuz a friend is suppose to be there to help u out and stuff right?
it's like everytime i try to put myself o ut there for someone
they dont need my help
ya...today our toilet was like leaking
ya..i'm gonna p ut that into one of my scripts
and my dad brought me the rong food from in and out
imma put that in one of my scripts too
sometimes i wonder if it's luck and coincidents workin in my life
or God
i assume it's God
cuz everything is a creatino of God
it seems i'm always waitin for somethin to be different
always waitin for something to happen
that will make everything betta
but it never happens
and i'm still left alone
unchanged
that's my biggest fault
waiting
theres nothing to wait for
except for like goin to heavan
u have no other reason to wait for anything
do u?
i'm waiting for mission viejo high school though
i think everythings gonna be cool
cuz i'm startin anew
barely anyone has any recollection of me
and that gives me the ability to create there image of me
i just hope i dont fuck it up
waiting
waiting for u to take me home
waiting for u lead me somewhere
i'm gonna start singin at choir
cuz like it's retarded for me not to sing if i think i have a good voice
ya know
like i'll never know if it's really good unless i start lettin ppl listen to that
i think that's why one of the reasons i want a guitar
cuz like if i get one
i'll be able to see if i can actually write
and be a musicion
come
just as you are to worship
come just as you are