words of the last two years
resignation; resentful; gratitude; william burroughs; manifestation; intricate; envious; ummmmmm!! gender; sexuality; "gender and sexuality"; confusion; melancholic; liquid elegance; liberal theology; courage; feminist; fortitute; dignity; salvador allende and investment strikes; plasticity; magical; free-jazz; ethinicity; expression and expressive; hollioaks; fantasy; polyarmourous; ornette coleman; dorothee solle; poignant; regret; attraction; psychological.
and very sleepy. oh! jaco was absolutely a wicked guy though :D in charge he is every bit as killerlyy funkmasterful as the weather report, but less tritely repetitive. it is kind of genuinely a jazz with the force and exuberant warmth of - well let's not get carried away and say The Zep - we'll stick with the small faces, but as delightfully intricate as charlies parker and mingus in a thoughtful moment. and with such drumming as would satisfy even my critically attention deficit appreciation of the instrument! marrrrrrvellous.
I worked last weekend! 8 days in a row and counting, up to friday to go. emotionally above average, but ambiguously so. then again isn't it always ambiguous. thinking a lot about sexuality-relationships....as ever....hehe, too much fascination in the bystander role to ever become involved!!! well, maybe more on that another time. and platonic relations too, all a source of great interest, oh yes oh yes. (what are the underlying fundamentals that make the person-person (and just sometimes more persons) relations whose key distinction is sex so vitally important to people? what is the concrete facticity supporting such platitudinous abstractions as 'love,' 'caring', whatever else you'll hear when you really push them for an explanation.....and which meaningful generalities are expressed in such heartwarming anecdotes as couples with such pleasure reinforce themselves through? -something to do with cementing and solidifying a person's view of their own place amongst others and reassuring them of their own value and worth[1] by having someone think they and only they are the best person existant out of them all. if this is part of the story - why is this so pervasive and rarely replaced by other measures of worth, aesthetic, moral, and less desirable...... -? I suppose one's 'true love' comprises a prism through which the moral and aesthetical and et cetera can be judged and perhaps you could say our whole system of social coexistance is so bound up with the idea of romantic involvement that you cannot say anything of significance that does not implicitly call in the fact of sexual partner/'true love' and the representation they make in You, subject, in relating to the rest of humanity (which we I would contend do whatever we do - especially important things, moral or aesthetic or business like or any sort of Success - in short almost all the things on which happiness or satisfaction or fulfilment depends) - perhaps the fact that every language I have heard of is utterly shot through and constituted by the shadow of sexual love true partner that such relations are so extraordinarily difficult to escape (emotionally, and intellectually)).
or perhaps it's just that people never stop bloody talking about them. including me. hee hee hee!
what nonsense, as ever. I couldn't been sleeping for 20 minutes instead of writing that: harrumpf. night!
[1] itself always relative to everyone else, we could tentatively suggest
and very sleepy. oh! jaco was absolutely a wicked guy though :D in charge he is every bit as killerlyy funkmasterful as the weather report, but less tritely repetitive. it is kind of genuinely a jazz with the force and exuberant warmth of - well let's not get carried away and say The Zep - we'll stick with the small faces, but as delightfully intricate as charlies parker and mingus in a thoughtful moment. and with such drumming as would satisfy even my critically attention deficit appreciation of the instrument! marrrrrrvellous.
I worked last weekend! 8 days in a row and counting, up to friday to go. emotionally above average, but ambiguously so. then again isn't it always ambiguous. thinking a lot about sexuality-relationships....as ever....hehe, too much fascination in the bystander role to ever become involved!!! well, maybe more on that another time. and platonic relations too, all a source of great interest, oh yes oh yes. (what are the underlying fundamentals that make the person-person (and just sometimes more persons) relations whose key distinction is sex so vitally important to people? what is the concrete facticity supporting such platitudinous abstractions as 'love,' 'caring', whatever else you'll hear when you really push them for an explanation.....and which meaningful generalities are expressed in such heartwarming anecdotes as couples with such pleasure reinforce themselves through? -something to do with cementing and solidifying a person's view of their own place amongst others and reassuring them of their own value and worth[1] by having someone think they and only they are the best person existant out of them all. if this is part of the story - why is this so pervasive and rarely replaced by other measures of worth, aesthetic, moral, and less desirable...... -? I suppose one's 'true love' comprises a prism through which the moral and aesthetical and et cetera can be judged and perhaps you could say our whole system of social coexistance is so bound up with the idea of romantic involvement that you cannot say anything of significance that does not implicitly call in the fact of sexual partner/'true love' and the representation they make in You, subject, in relating to the rest of humanity (which we I would contend do whatever we do - especially important things, moral or aesthetic or business like or any sort of Success - in short almost all the things on which happiness or satisfaction or fulfilment depends) - perhaps the fact that every language I have heard of is utterly shot through and constituted by the shadow of sexual love true partner that such relations are so extraordinarily difficult to escape (emotionally, and intellectually)).
or perhaps it's just that people never stop bloody talking about them. including me. hee hee hee!
what nonsense, as ever. I couldn't been sleeping for 20 minutes instead of writing that: harrumpf. night!
[1] itself always relative to everyone else, we could tentatively suggest