my apology to all of you.
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i did have this huge long entry written out venting to you...but its really not worth it is it...im so sick of venting...im so sick of it. i just want to dissapear.
and yes...sometimes...i wish i had never met you...any of you...
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i just wanted to say that i am sorry to everyone. i know that i say some really nasty things, and i know that i have sort of a reputation for making peole feel really stupid. but i dont mean to. i love you all more than anything...and if i make you feel like an idiot its not because i dont love you, its just becasue im an asshole who doesnt know how to control the situations she gets herself into. thats all it is. and i am sorry for ever making any of you feel anything other than beatiful. becasue i love all of you and you are al very important to me.
but i also want you to know that if i do somthing to offend you that you can talk to me about it. you dont have to g tell everyone else what a jerk i am. i already knwo that, i dont need to hear it from strangers.
but still, there is no excise for being such an idiot. but i love you guys and i miss you, even though none of you are very far away at all. i think it is very important that we all keep eachother close. i want that, and i hope you want that, so maybe if we could all just be nice to eachother...becasue i never wanted any of this. i just wanted everyone to be happy. and i am so sorry.
well, i guess thats all i really wanted to say.
peace.
i did have this huge long entry written out venting to you...but its really not worth it is it...im so sick of venting...im so sick of it. i just want to dissapear.
and yes...sometimes...i wish i had never met you...any of you...
...
i just wanted to say that i am sorry to everyone. i know that i say some really nasty things, and i know that i have sort of a reputation for making peole feel really stupid. but i dont mean to. i love you all more than anything...and if i make you feel like an idiot its not because i dont love you, its just becasue im an asshole who doesnt know how to control the situations she gets herself into. thats all it is. and i am sorry for ever making any of you feel anything other than beatiful. becasue i love all of you and you are al very important to me.
but i also want you to know that if i do somthing to offend you that you can talk to me about it. you dont have to g tell everyone else what a jerk i am. i already knwo that, i dont need to hear it from strangers.
but still, there is no excise for being such an idiot. but i love you guys and i miss you, even though none of you are very far away at all. i think it is very important that we all keep eachother close. i want that, and i hope you want that, so maybe if we could all just be nice to eachother...becasue i never wanted any of this. i just wanted everyone to be happy. and i am so sorry.
well, i guess thats all i really wanted to say.
peace.