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i think im dying...
well, lets see...today today today...what did i do...well, i went to school and stuff. it was the same as it always is...i guess...
i went to hang out with josue after school. he was asleep when i got there so i just rolled cigarettes with justin and we talked. then we all just hang out for the rest of the day, picked up mallory, drove around, went grocery shopping and ate hamburger helper. it was really fun. but then i started to feel sick, so i left. i really like spending time with josue. its fun...
so all in all i guess it was an ok day...
*sigh* lately i really havnt been feeling like my old self. i feel disconnected, like im not really here and all this is not really happening...i dont know...i just feel defeated...i dont really know how, i just do. i feel totally defeated, like im a failure of a human being...i dont know...its gay. i guess im just having one of those times...its probably just that ive been in really good spirits lately and ive used up all my good vibes, or seretonin or something like that...
botom line, i dont feel happy...and i know thats my fault. im trying...but right now everything seems so wayward that its hard. blah, never mind...it will pass soon im sure...there are things to keep me busy.
my mom is mad at me. i dont know...whatever. im getting sick of it...maybe i should just leave. i thought i was doing the right thing by staying here...i thought she was doing the right thing by not kicking me out...i thought everything would be allright. apparently i was wrong...
i think im gonna go and stay with erin for a little while...ermm...i dont know.
either way...im gonna go to bed.
peace,
Leanne
well, lets see...today today today...what did i do...well, i went to school and stuff. it was the same as it always is...i guess...
i went to hang out with josue after school. he was asleep when i got there so i just rolled cigarettes with justin and we talked. then we all just hang out for the rest of the day, picked up mallory, drove around, went grocery shopping and ate hamburger helper. it was really fun. but then i started to feel sick, so i left. i really like spending time with josue. its fun...
so all in all i guess it was an ok day...
*sigh* lately i really havnt been feeling like my old self. i feel disconnected, like im not really here and all this is not really happening...i dont know...i just feel defeated...i dont really know how, i just do. i feel totally defeated, like im a failure of a human being...i dont know...its gay. i guess im just having one of those times...its probably just that ive been in really good spirits lately and ive used up all my good vibes, or seretonin or something like that...
botom line, i dont feel happy...and i know thats my fault. im trying...but right now everything seems so wayward that its hard. blah, never mind...it will pass soon im sure...there are things to keep me busy.
my mom is mad at me. i dont know...whatever. im getting sick of it...maybe i should just leave. i thought i was doing the right thing by staying here...i thought she was doing the right thing by not kicking me out...i thought everything would be allright. apparently i was wrong...
i think im gonna go and stay with erin for a little while...ermm...i dont know.
either way...im gonna go to bed.
peace,
Leanne