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Well, I'm back. I decided not to write in my journal for a while because I'm sick of all the girls without real eating disorders wanting to learn about the ana 'lifestyle'. While I think the lifestyle can and does help people without the disease get the 'results' they're looking for, I really can't stand the constant IMs of 'what do you do when you fast?', 'what do you do when you purge?' etc. But in all honesty I love nothing more than talking to women experiencing what I am, and to give support and get it in return.
I've fallen off the wagon a bit lately. I've gained almost 7 pounds in the last month because of not exercising enough and eating out all the time. But, instead of doing what I'd really like to do and restrict and basically not allow myself to eat anything and work out like hell... I'm going to do the Weight Watchers method but only allow myself 16 points a day. 20 if I work out and earn the extra 4. I'm 5'9, so in all fairness I should allow myself up to 25 points, but I don't think that would make enough of an impact. I'm also going to exercise for an hour every day, since that's all I have time for. Hopefully I'll be able to get in some extra exercising during the night time.
Anyways, I'm not sure if anyone really reads this journal anymore since I haven't updated in forever, but I'd love to talk about tips and past experiences with you guys. I love giving and getting support, and I think its a huge part of what having an eating disorder is. I'm here if anyone needs to talk, leave a comment with your AIM name if you'd like to get in touch.
I've fallen off the wagon a bit lately. I've gained almost 7 pounds in the last month because of not exercising enough and eating out all the time. But, instead of doing what I'd really like to do and restrict and basically not allow myself to eat anything and work out like hell... I'm going to do the Weight Watchers method but only allow myself 16 points a day. 20 if I work out and earn the extra 4. I'm 5'9, so in all fairness I should allow myself up to 25 points, but I don't think that would make enough of an impact. I'm also going to exercise for an hour every day, since that's all I have time for. Hopefully I'll be able to get in some extra exercising during the night time.
Anyways, I'm not sure if anyone really reads this journal anymore since I haven't updated in forever, but I'd love to talk about tips and past experiences with you guys. I love giving and getting support, and I think its a huge part of what having an eating disorder is. I'm here if anyone needs to talk, leave a comment with your AIM name if you'd like to get in touch.