Freak Freakin School
So much for my picture entries, im a boring guy, therefore you get those mindless rambles. im rather upset now, since this is a live journal, and since i cant say names, we will call the person in this scenario, katherine. katherine has been my friend for much time, i thought we were good friends, but im starting to doubt it, i am slowly realizing that i am just her release...(not sexual.) Shell call me, or walk up to me at school, and o my boyfriend this...and all these problems, then i give my biblical or common sense advice, and she blows it off, then a month later...whatta ya know? old hunter was right...same scenario again and again...and normally this wouldnt bug me, bc i like giving advice, but she is my friend, and whenever she hurts, i hurt too, it really screws up everything. i just read bartons update, and it makes me sad for him, i will pray for him...parents are not always the best, and it does suck. now to my complaints about school...i am slowly coming to the conclusion that im hated by many, loved by few. it frustrates to see all my old friends turn there back on me, and hand and hand with that is a cold heart. i am not on the same team as any of my real friends, which can really damage ones social life. one of my best friends, doesnt even talk to me anymore...its like we were never friends, if i go to sit with him at lunch, its awkward and wierd, and i usualy just go away...i dunno. i feel so lonely, i feel unaccepted, i feel like im conforming, and it freakin sucks..,all these problems i have listed so far, are nothing compared to yours...but the one that i share in common with you, is that my biggest problem, is not liking who i am, i dont like myself anymore, and last year i loved myself, i thought i was the shit...i was the shit, now i am shit...this sucks.