it couldn't get any shittier
If you could lie anymore than you did, i think your head would explode. I know that you must have been shitting me for a week now. Yeah. I just think that if you didn't like me, then you shouldn't have EVER said or done anything. This is my life Dan, if you care to read this. I put on this act, you see, I am happy, my life seems to be happy go lucky, when really, it's the shittiest time ever. Theni meet someone, someone i can trust. then either it's "your more like a friend to me." or, they end up liking my better-looking counterpart, Erickah. It is, in truth, a shitty life for me. The reason i haven't any self-esteem is, it's all fucking gone. I gave it up or lost it. I wake up to "you look like shit." or "no one likes you Lillie, you're too fat." then someone comes along and says..."you're beautiful." and i think Wow, that's a first. Then i realize that sometime people lie and when they do, it hurts. Maybe no one has done it to you, maybe they have, but you aren't like me. You never will be, no one will. and that's probably a good thing. Who the fuck would want to be a fat, ugly, stupid idiot anyway? Furthermore, who'd want me? I know you don't. But you know what? I will stop dumping on you, if you haven't stopped reading this yet, and maybe think about somemore of the lies you told me.